things that are stressing me out right now ( Read more... )

so on january 2nd, kyle and i finally had a good talk. thanks to jen, if she didnt tell him to come back to my house after he had randomly left because i called him an ass hole. anyways ( Read more... )

happy birthday jesus! merry christmas! well today is going to be very lonley concidering i dont have a boyfriend. and that special someone that i was hoping to call me or even text me to say happy holidays, didnt do it. i am feeling very depressed. i hope his family liked me better then they like her today. well i hope he has a good christmas and ( Read more... )

so today is sunday and i just went to the movies with martin and my dad. it was james bond but not anything i would recomend. very confusing ( Read more... )

so i have decided that instead of posting an actually entry, i would make this entry into a prayer ( Read more... )

well... i have been waiting around all day for your call. or text. somehow im not your girlfriend but i still look forward to talking to you. and im not suppost to call you because someone complains i call too much...haha i wont even say anything.. and you wont even read this till like two years down the road when hopefully we can look over this ( Read more... )

oh and by the way, kyle still doesnt have a house and neither do i , i havent moved in with kirby either, im just staying at home for the rest of my fucking days. HOPEFULLY MY MOM DIES

so this whole thing about ACE, im quitting now. ha the manager was an ass about me having to go to orientation. thats pretty gay. so i have to work that friday and i guess im just not going to show up. idk i really want a job in something that i want to do, like an animal shelter. i really wouldnt mind cleaning up shit. hopefully im getting paid ( Read more... )

so im kind of feeling like shit. i dont know. i am jaded. it feels like, everything i try i hate. like cheerleading and i couldnt stand it and how i feel asleep crying every night. then after that was oh i dont have a job and im so depressed. now i have a fucking job and its ok but its not what i want. i dont like having to deal with people and ( Read more... )

so if u never really read my journal, or dont really care i just want u to listen to this. so today i pretty much got my ass kicked. i played rugby and got tackled and fell hard on the back of my head i sat up and my nose and mouth started bleeding. haha yeah pretty fucking hard core. so i just sat there and laughed cus i was so out of it i must ( Read more... )