I'm not sure anyone uses this anymore, but I thought I'd send an update...

I don't live in Oregon anymore.
I'm single for the first time in 7 years.
I am unemployed for the firs time in 4.5 years.
I'm scared.
I don't know where to turn.
I'm depressed.
I want to go back home.

I am updating with this title, because, well that's what I feel like the world consists of.  A bunch of Tough Shit people who pretend to care about you when they don't.

Okay, so I'm sick.  I've caught that stupid cold that's been going around.  I've only had symptoms for 3 days and today was awful. It was in my sinuses today.  The entire left side of my face just ached.  even to just yawn.  Well, we'll see what tomorrow brings...

I don't think this is working.  Maybe I should just quit while I have... well, I don't have my heart, but maybe I should just quit.  He's pissed off at me, and doesn't care to understand where I'm coming from.  He's so dammed thick headed!

So, I was in a house fire.  But don't worry, it wasn't my house and everyone is fine.  If you guys have any messages of concern, you can send them to www.myspace.com/chicken_egg  That's brandon's myspace and he seems to be getting all the messages.  It really doesn't seem to matter how I'm doing, and brandon made that clear too. "second it was my ( Read more... )

Okay, it's not the world, just my cousin... and she won't say it to me.  It's sad when something was supposed to be done and over with gets drug back up and nothing gets said to me by the people actually involved... ugh.  I hate my family life

Who gives a fuck what I want.  No one.  Brandon tells me to tell him what I want... like about this weekend, and us. But he decided that it didn't matter, that he was going to work anyway, even after telling me "I want to know what you want, I don't need to work"

fuck people!

It's been a while since I've written in here, so I thought I'd send a message/blog this way.

Things are going well between Brandon and I...

But there isn't much more to say than that.

Alrighty, life is boring... Later.

I'm writing in blue, because that's how I feel.  I've done a lot of crying over the last two days, and my depression has finally affected me at work.  I actually went home from work early today because of crying.  I just couldn't stop, and when I wasn't crying people would ask me what was wrong, if I was okay, and/or if I wanted to talk about it.  ( Read more... )

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