We're not datting anymore... But our relationship with eachother is exactly the same, just without the sex and kissing. This is perfect for me. If it works out. It is exactly what I asked for with Stephen, but he couldn't deal with that. I think as long as I don't get jealous, Grant and I will be perfect as really close friends. All I ever wanted ( Read more... )

Help me try to be myself. Remind me who I am.

So Grant is questioning us. I cried as he drove me around the neighborhood and we talked. We're gonna sleep on it and talk tmrw night. It always comes to this. Every relationship. This one doesn't feel over to me though...

So basically this is really getting to me... I keep thinking about how seriously this is going to affect the rest of my life. At best, I'll still have to go be treated every two years with IVs. And at the moment I'm on steroids, which are making me extremely deppressed (it might not be them, but the ordeal of it all). I've been crying on and off ( Read more... )

I never really have liked this lj much... so find me on MySpace if you're interested!!

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Yeah... So I had another "episode" with my parents again where we "discussed" things... I, like usual, was balling the entire time while my dad told me how much I don't appreciate life and how lucky I am and that I don't understand... I talked back like I've begun to do and he says "I don't even wanna hear it" so I get pissed cuz HE doesn't ( Read more... )

"If you tell the truth, you don't have to remeber what you said"
~Unknown~

I try to live by this...

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~Hehe, I got elected top lifeguard for the summer at the Hamilton pool today, so I'm pretty happy about that!!! There are like 40 guards too, so to be voted TopGuard is kinda a big deal (to me anyways)... I now get 8 hours pay for free and like a sweatshirt or something =-P !! But yeah, I feel it's only fair payback for me having to pick crap up ( ( Read more... )

Yeah... So my throat is once again swollen and getting white spots throughout it. When I puch on the inside of my throat there's nasty pussy stuff that comes out... It's very painful!!! It even hurts to swallow now, usually it's just painful to poke at...

I'm gonna go try to sleep through the pain, and hope it's better by work time tmrw...

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Yeah, I'm back!! Just letting you all know... even though I don't think anyone reads this =-P !!

I got hit in the face on Sat... my nose still hurts and feels funny... I swished a three pointer, that was cool... umm... Not much else to say about it...

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Ok, so I'm leaving at 9am today for some sort of tournament thingy with my b-ball team. It's up at UofA. I'll be back Sunday night sometime, but I've got my phone so if you need a hold of me (or just wanna talk) call!! If I don't answer, just leave a message with your number so I can call back once I'm not busy!! I have no clue how busy we're gonna ( Read more... )