So it seems in my life, no matter what it is i can't have the thing i want. how i hate that. the one thing i really want is to be happy and there is one this one thing that will make me happy but... it seem that will never happen to me. there most me something wrong with me... something that tell everyone she not suppose to be happy and to get the ( Read more... )

so today i started my new job. i happy about get the job and i hate to be complaining on my first day of work but oh my holy hell. the work it self was cake but i had so much stand still time that it hurts me. the more i have around the better. so as i sit her now my knees and feet are killing me i worked a 12 hour shift. and i have to go back and ( Read more... )

well here it is weeks later oh something that happened to me. It seem that someone told me that i should just go after things i want and well when i finally get the guts to do it something shoots me in the foot. i think i have good things finally coming my way then it is ripped away from me. But it seems that it doesn't bother me like it used to ( Read more... )

thats very very stupid man is bitchen at me again. i wanna kill him... he needs to leave. he yells at me way to much. always has something to say to me. its time for it to stop. so if anyone has a gun that wan to lone me and a shovel... i promise that they will be clean went i return them.

Me and the pains i have well that were bothering me last night...real late could sleep...so i keep thinking of ways i could end the pain that i have. I'm tried of always being sad but it really the only thing i know. Death seem like i good thing... so i keep thinking about it... good way to kill myself

so it 1:30 in the morning and i need to sleep but can't go to sleep yet again. It sucks when u need to sleep and can't get to sleep. But i have been thinking all night...about thing i know about myself. Like ( Read more... )

So there are three things i did today that i have never doing but i'm only going to tell you about two of the things i did ( Read more... )

So this afternoon when out with emily good times... She wanted to go shopping... so we are looking for clothes, she picks out her clothes and she needs a couple other things... some how we end up looking at condoms and lube... it one of my favorite place to stop by its funny to see what comes out sex related...so anyways emily decides to buy so ( Read more... )

So today had to watch the babies nothing new. today wasn't very exciting it rain most of the day. i had a headache all day...getting better about writing down the times i get headaches... so after i watched the babies i came home and sleep. then at like 10pm went an had coffee with emily. was funny the way she decided to cover herself from the ( Read more... )

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