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JUNE 02 2013
So I joined the NAVY. That was the answer. I didn't end my life, though I never feel like I belong. But the experiment continues. The experiment of living, of waking up everyday and this time putting on a uniform. The humans, they never cease to surprise, and I am always present. Here in Portsmouth with Duke next door and Daft Punk on the radio on ( Read more... ) -
AUGUST
Nothing to say since July? What about the words, Matt and Tony and Utah and the stars. Jessie too, would make the list and the life that is escaping me. I feel nothing and everything. I am making no sense. Utah was amazing, I felt pure and privileged to be apart of that world, no, it was glamour, there was sadness and poverty, and colour-America is ( Read more... ) -
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It's that time again. Another summer, another breakup. Actually, no, this time the pain defied all logic and reason used to make the decision.It was about as subtle as a tsunami. I did love him so, as much as I could love which in the end, was more than enough for him and yet not for me. I guess the type of love to satisfy me has not yet been ( Read more... ) -
INDECISION
This year I am going to be thirty and I still don't know where to start. How do people figure this out? I have many ideas of course, all perfectly sane ones such as A) go back to school and get a Masters Degree. b. Go back to school and get a bachelors of science.c) Write and shoot a FILM. This is alll money of course. Money I don't have. I can of ( Read more... ) -
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It seems like everyone has lost, or are close to losing their jobs. Today I almost quit mines. Again. And if I was the kind of person to say what was on my mind in those moments instead of stifling my words, I would have. Today I came home and told the Animal about my encounter with my boss, and though previously he normally would've dissuaded me ( Read more... ) -
it's like jumping off a cliff.
I am suppose grateful that I managed to make it this far without offing myself. Relationship is so far so good. He makes me happy and yet, I am unable to trust him completely. Some things about him don't make sense, they don't add up and have me on alarm. I want to keep my inner voice down. I don't wish to sabotage what has been the thus far, the ( Read more... ) -
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For the past three months or so, I took a creative writing class and because I was forced to participate I wrote a whole lot. Now that it's over, I'm not sure but I feel that itch to be creative again. I don't want to end up in that funk I did after I left screenwriting class. I remember thinking, "wow, now I know how to write a script and I'll ( Read more... ) -
Writer's Block: Doctor Who?
honestly, David Tennant is not a choice so everyone should stop suggesting him. He was a good Doctor, if not a bit zany for my liking. I loved Chris Eccleston first but since he jumped ship, I can only look forward to this new guy though I must admit his hair sucks ass. As for my ideal choice...golly umm....oh I dunno, Hugh Laurie! Yes Hugh Laurie ( Read more... ) -
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This weekend I'm moving back to Brooklyn. I feel so scared. It amazes me how traumatising these experiences can be. I feel so pessimistic about life right now mostly because it seems to me that the world is filled with much more dread than hope. A friend of mine yesterday asked me if I was hopeless romantic and the answer is still yes and still ( Read more... ) -
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To watch a film from director Tsai Ming Liang is equivalent to He does not vary camera angles and dares to show aspects of the human experience that would make most westerners blush. Other techniques involve the scant use of a musical score as well as film endings that are inconclusive. His particular use of the film language flies in the face of ( Read more... )