I have never really enjoyed summer the way I probably should, but that is just something that is personal to me. I do not understand why, but that is just the way it is. Anyway, I am finally 19, and this weekend I shall be going to a concert, Projekt Revolution. Huzzah! I am going to have such a good time there.

Today I saw my first love again, and she is over me. She did not say anything to me. I saw her, even was close enough that I could have touched her at one point, but she acted as if I did not exist. To be honest, it is why I left early from where I was at. It hurt thinking that she did not want anything to do with me, so I left. I thought ( Read more... )

Saturday was a nice day for me. I had a lot of fun despite having to be constantly moving from 1230-715pm. I was mowing lawns. Anyway, Saturday was really really great. Then Sunday came along. My friend is having a really hard time of it now. She had to do something she regrets deeply and I just can not help myself but to feel sad whenever I ( Read more... )

I'm sorry. I'm sorry for all the wrongs I caused. I'm sorry for all the pain I caused. I'm sorry for all the hurt because of me. I'm sorry that I was a problem for anything. I'm sorry I can't be who you want. I'm sorry I can't be who I am. I'm sorry you can't accept me for what I'm not. I'm sorry I can't accept you the way I am. I'm sorry ( Read more... )

Finally the hills are without eyes ( Read more... )

College is going well for me, but that's not what the main problem is for me. Whenever I want to be with a girl, I always wait too long to ask her out. I don't want to push her into a relationship, but at the same time I don't want to feel as though I'm not trying hard enough. I waited too long again to try and ask out a girl I know, and now she ( Read more... )

Life is empty for me and so I am sitting at home and waiting for it to improve. Anything I had tried to do only ended up stabbing me in the back and killing me a little bit at a time. I have nothing left, and I am just a terrible shell of a man. Not only did I lose the girl I utterly would do everything for, I found out that the girl I would do ( Read more... )

I am finally happier with everything. I can't wait to get back out there and try again, even if I find out that I still can't do it, at least I'll know two ways on how not to do it. I know I can do this, I feel great. I can pass college and leave behind my academic probation. I will prove everyone wrong, including my old self. I can do this.

I'm still waiting for school to begin again. Mostly, I'm just sad that my life is in a spiral that I can't control, but if I was supposed to control it then it wouldn't feel this bad whenever I pick up my phone to talk to anyone. It hurts, but I'm just hoping that I can get a car soon, one that no one else knows as to what it looks like. After ( Read more... )

Well, it has been a couple of weeks since I found out my final grades for the first semester of college. I didn't do too well. I am not going to go into detail here, but I need to step up with my studying and step up with my study habits, or else I won't have another semester at VWC. I don't like how it is turning out, but I may have to fail out ( Read more... )