It started with a kiss and turned into something else ( Read more... )

Things have changed quite a bit around here for me. I am currently in a relationship with the girl I met at Nekocon a while back now. Stephanie never made any attempts to see me over the summer, so I put her aside, and Krystle just happened to come back into my life at that time. I am currently planning to see her in a little over a month from ( Read more... )

Well, it has been a while since I have posted here, mostly due to me being quite busy. I am still dating Stephanie, and I am really happy about that. I finally do know how she feels about me. She is just as conflicted as I am, but in the end, we want the same thing: for the other to be happy, no matter what. I cannot be made to be any happier ( Read more... )

Well, Coffee Girl is back home for her spring break. I am going to hang out with her if it is the only thing I do this week, even if it is only for half an hour. That is my one and only goal for this week. Man, I just feel excited about seeing her again! In my mind, she is my girlfriend, but it is only unnofficial for now. Until she calls me ( Read more... )

Yesterday I had a heart to heart with Coffee Girl. I think I ended up pushing her away by being too honest with her. I let her know that I really do love her. I always say that too soon, and it always causes problems. I wish I knew what to do. I do not want to lose her, but I do not know what else to do to solve this, or if it is even a ( Read more... )

I think I finally got through to Lexy to not fuck with me, ever. The shit started last night, when I was talking with someone on the back of her car, Lexy came out and started yelling at me not to touch her truck. If she had just asked, rather than yelled, I would have stood up, moved a step forward, and sat down on the ground, but she didn't, so ( Read more... )

I got this idea from a video I saw on youtube, which was titled "Tales of Mere Existance: I'm not going to think about her" by a guy named Lev and he kept saying things he wasn't going to think about that all related to his ex-girlfriend. I just wanted to see if it would help me too, and it did in its own kind of way ( Read more... )

Everyone tells me I should forget. Forget the past, forget the pain, forget the memories, forget the happiness, forget her. I have wanted to at times, but despite it all, no matter how hard I had tried, no matter where I went, no matter what I did, she was always in my mind. I am tired of being in so much pain, but yet I am still willing to ( Read more... )

I got tired of fighting my inner darkness, so I stopped. Now, I am much more pessimistic, and I really do not laugh much, I'm pretty much the same as I was a few weeks ago. Also, I harbor ill-feelings toward a couple of people that I know. I harbor ill-will toward them, but I let go of what it was that I despised them for. Now, I do not like ( Read more... )

I hate summer. It is too hot. I am always alone. Always doing chores. Never getting a date. I know I'm creepy, but to be honest and fair, I DON'T NEED EVERYONE TELLING ME THIS!!! FUCK!!! Why is it that people have to remind me that I am creepy?!?! I ALREADY FUCKING KNOW!!! Telling me again is only making it worse. So next time any one of ( Read more... )