another awesome day

[superstarie]

Today...today I did nothing. I was suppose to study with Chris, but he was like "i'm working on a project just give me about 30 to 45 minutes" and hour later he was like "not quit done need another 45 minutes" and soon enough it was 4:30 and i couldn't go over then because it was too late and Becca would be home soon. So I was online. And John

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[brillare]

He slapped you?! Excuse me but what kind of asshole would do that to you? You don't fucking deserve that. Guys suck ass. They're scum.

[superstarie]

yeah ....I talked to him for like 2 hours. It's all better now. I understand him..better. Of course its like the first time we've talked- in like months-which is a key factor to any relationship/friendship of any kind. We just didn't talk..ever. And things issues just built up, and we just kept not talking about them. Anyway. I told him to be nicer. I'm pretty sure he aggreed. but he also said he talks to everyone the same way. But I said that if he ever hangs up on me again, I'm not calling back, and he said ok. So that is a good thing. I like abuse. what can i say? I long for it..I seek it out. It's not really abuse..if it builds up, us not talking, it becomes emotional abuse...But he also said if I didn't like it I shouldn't deal with it. But I can't handle not talking to him. That i know. And the heart yearns for peace. I refuse to block..anyone out of my system on purpose compltely. It's so much harder to live with hate. And purposely ignore someone and hold them away from you. SO much harder. Especiallly if you let