at 5:30am, i am still wide awake. it's become an ugly habit with me -not being able to fall asleep any earlier than 5am. i guess with my departure now a day away, my anxieties are closing in ( Read more... )

she led a storm into the city ( Read more... )

there's so much to do. i feel overwhelmed. the seal hunt is scheduled to begin in march. there are petitions on other issues -environmental and animal... and i still have books to read, and reread, and rethink and find and i have things to write and mambo lessons to review and yoga to catch up on and i have not done my squats and lunges in ( Read more... )

when does this search ever end? what does marky represent?

the nerves are starting already. feelings of paralysis. thoughts of failure. doubts of self ( Read more... )

I feel so fucking sad lately. I wake up every day with a heaviness in my body that doesn’t go away. Mostly, I try to find distractions to loose myself in just to avoid feeling it, but it’s always there. And I hate it. Like some stubborn reminder -like I could ever forget my isolation ( Read more... )

i cast a stone into a forgotten pond ( Read more... )

why did i pick smashing pumpkins' "today" for the new trailer song?

i debated it for a while. i did. but in the end, it seemed an inevitable match that a song that defined our chicago-based team would be this one.


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Throw your head back, up toward ( Read more... )

You left me here ( Read more... )