you ask yourself, just how much further am i gonna last like this ( Read more... )

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I got back home from my six month stay in Shanghai Friday evening. Team trials is this weekend. So many things have happened during this last training semester back in Shanghai, but I wasn't able to post due to China's infamous band on blogging sites (lj being one of them ( Read more... )

it hurts when i'm made to go at the end of the line during practice because i am a foreigner ( Read more... )

Chris wasn't online when I returned from the supermarket. I almost got into a fistfight at the supermarket -if you believe. The apex of my emotional rollercoaster thus far... I wanted to talk to him, wanted to find some solace from what is happening to me lately, but he left me an online message saying he was tired and going to bed. I was even ( Read more... )

sprained toe on the left and swollen ankle on the right. i haven't landed an aerial once, and the rest of my jump kicks look ridiculous. i can't pick-up any of the new choreography she's been teaching me for the spear routine. the choreography for longfist is so basic, and i'm even having trouble with that. i can't do anything well. i'm ( Read more... )

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today marked the end of the first week's training. it's been a trying week. i don't feel like myself yet. i miss home, but when i'm home, i am so down because this is where i need to be to train. and i know that. i'm neither here nor there completely. rickey's not due here for another 3 weeks. i can't wait until he's here.


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