here's a list of things i want. just because im in that kind of mood ( Read more... )

i;ve been going through a process. a psychological process, a physical process, a spiritual and emotional evolution. you wonder what it is, and i'll tell you. it's my hair. my hair has been this element in my life that has provided too much stability for me, honestly ( Read more... )

i got glasses, so the world is brand new to me right now. i am an artist, and i feel like i am seeing the world through a whole new perspective. i can see small details again. i never realized how much i was missing out. it was such a small correction but the impact is amazing ( Read more... )

i was home alone and i had just finished watching v for vendetta.i was sitting on the toilet with the bathroom door open. and i began the sentence "i wish..." intending to finish it with some wish that i could live alone, with alec, or something along the lines of not living with my parents and loving the feeling of being alone. but i didn't finish ( Read more... )

my original plan to be a cardboard "kissing booth" is now totally useless since i am certainly not a depressingly desperate single lady anymore ( Read more... )

its fucking late but my mind won't leave this alone. are we supposed to be with one person? do we really have soul mates? how are we supposed to know? i have spent the last year of my life giving myself some solid ground of what i think about this. i have always been a lover. i have always wanted to be in love. a movie kind of love. the perfect ( Read more... )

it feels good to be alive.

i'm sorry for making you feel stupid. i'm sorry. i didn't understand. i didn't want to understand. i didn't want to believe that i could ever understand. i thought i was above it all. i thought i was above loving and wanting someone so much that you make sacrifices to keep them. you give yourself less than what you deserve. you settle, and your ( Read more... )

well, i am sick, sleep deprived, dehydrated... and i should be packing because i leave for utah tomorrow morning. but i just had some thoughts. mostly on presence, absence, and love. and when they're combined. his presence: makes my heart smile, my mind calm, and my insecurities thaw. the other day i reached this point where i was wondering the ( Read more... )

just some thoughts ( Read more... )