im just gonna keep holding on. im gonna keep smiling and acting like its all fine.

but in reality its not.

i dont think my grandpa is going to make it past christmas day if he makes it that far.

i just dont know how much more i can take.

I

Hate

Broken

Promises.

And those are the only kind I get from anyone.

So I really hate these early morning shifts. 5 days of getting up at 3 to come work...sucks. And THEN having to work 8-6 Saturday, doesnt make it any better. I can't dick my boss over...cause he quit. HAHAHAHAHAHA ( Read more... )

*My boss is an ass ( Read more... )

sometimes i feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders and if i move the wrong way, it will come crashing down upon me.

I can not and will not give my heart to Robbie again. I can't deal with the lies and the back stabbing and the hiding things. And he has started it again and I KNOW he is lieing. So from now on, I am avoiding him. Think what you want about it, but that's what I am doing. If I shut him out, I can't fall again ( Read more... )

I hate love ( Read more... )

So here I sit again, way too early in the morning and I have been at work for 2 hours now. This is the most painful place to be. So many hours spent here, so many memories in this building of what Tom and I used to be. I go hours without mentioning him but not a single minute passes that he doesn't cross my mind. I'm over the crying. And I don ( Read more... )

he broke up with me.

and it was mean.

and he is going to "treat me like i never existed."

i have never felt a pain as bad as this. not even ever with robbie.

i just want it to all go away.

tom and i are falling apart. fell apart. whatever. im still numb to the situation ( Read more... )