...** well it's been a long fucking time since i've updated in this thingy...but i guess it's time for a new one...life's definately been intresting, but anything and everything but good...im still single...so i guess it's been about a year since ive had a girlfriend....that's an accomplishment for me, but certainly not something im happy about... ( Read more... )

**...ok,...so if you didn't like someone...( in more than friends terms, but you liked them as a friend)...and they asked you one night to be flat out and tell them if you liked them or not, wouldn't you automatically say no right away?....but instead of saying no, istantly they ask "why, do like me?"...what does that mean?....would somebody please ( Read more... )

**...sara.....shes called the other night....i had to force myself off the phone befor i strating having an emtional break-down...she fucked me up so bad i cant even begin to explain.....im feeling more and more hallow everyday now...when i know i shouldn't.....i even statred working more to make me feel better...i just can't stand when couples ( Read more... )

**...feeling weird...no sudden urges to talk about my life...**

later.

**..lastnight i found out that my best friend, whom i havn't seen in 8 months killed himself about 4 months ago...and i was the last to find out...i wrote this song for him this afternoon ( Read more... )

**...have you ever had the uncontrolable urge to dig deep into your chest with your bare hands to ripp out your still beating heart so that you could cut & disect it into little pieces of a pathetic excuse of love, pain & sarrow only hoping to find the answers to why this tiny bloody organ in your hands can so easily produce unimaginable quantities ( Read more... )

**...caring about someone is the most horrible expierence i've ever had....it's amazing how quickly they cna make & break your day....this sucks!...**

later.

**...well hi....things are good...i get to play tonight, so that should be fun...i dunno...nothing feels the same anymore....it sucks when you think you've made this unbelievable impact on someone's life, like you've permanently embedded yourself as this great deal of care and compassion for them.....then you realize...you're nothing...just a tiny ( Read more... )

**...yeah well it's been a while since i've been here but nothing much has changed....still doing the music...expect i've gained this new found hate for love and feelings....hahaha....no, but seriously, love = pain and, feelings = love... so theres no way to win....so i think ive given up....hopefully something will change that...but as for now, i ( Read more... )

** well ive been pretty busy with work and music, i haven't really updated in a while...im going into the studio again tomarrow to work on the 2nd cd....i hope this all works out.....i dont have too much time but i hope to be more consistant from now on...**

later.