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Still think about you.
Why does it even matter? I still think about you and just recollect on past memories of us together, why? Everytime I think about burning your pictures or letters you gave me, I just can't. This sucks you have two kids already and I know ive never crossed your mind. I wish I could just have my mind zapped and erase all of it. It could be just me ( Read more... ) -
Another dream
Had a dream last night Carly and I hung out. Just her and I hanging out in her car and she had The Drums on her iPod which made me happy. I was trying to find on her ipod the smiths covers jonny pierce does, she didn't have it or I don't know how to love by The Drums. She kept touching my crotch and I told her while laughing to stop I'm getting a ( Read more... ) -
R.I.P. Sadie Sauls
It was tragic news finding out today a friend of mine died. Last time I saw her was this past summer with her husband at Janie's Diamond Club. I cried heavy for 5 minutes straight because she was a great friend and opened my eyes at 19 to a lot of things. She showed me The Smiths at 19 and the first song I ever heard was shoplifters of the world ( Read more... ) -
Had a weird fucking dream last night.
Had a weird dream I was in a prison with Carly. The set up was very similar to Natural Born Killers, we kept running around rippig shit off walls and destroying everything around us. I killed the warden and she killed some other guy and we kept singing "never say never!" like the Romeo Void song. Fucking weird, I don't think about her anymore. I ( Read more... ) -
Just an entry no one will read or care for......
I found myself watching Reality Bites today. An important woman showed me this movie back in 2003 and I catch myself watching it every 3-4 months. I catch myself crying everytime I watch it because happy endings do not exist in real life but in this fictional movie it looks so real as if it could happen. It's the only movie that makes me laugh and ( Read more... ) -
last night has opened my eyes.........
So yesterday would have been my friend Jodi's 31st birthday. It was very saddening to think about that since she was a great friend of mine and I hold music close to my heart and without her I would have never known about the murder city devils or tiger army and for that I am greatful. It feels like yesterday when I first met her, Isabel and Lina ( Read more... ) -
Been in my dreams all week, what is going on....
Reoccurring dreams of you in my dreams. First one was you were laying on the floor in all black and I walked past you. You woke up and gave me a glare, I thought to keep walking but then I turned around and helped you up. Another weird one was I was at your parents house trying to get to your bedroom and you came running down a hallway to hug me. ( Read more... ) -
I need to get out of this town soon....
On the verge of tears today at work and almost wanted to just get up and leave. I just hate being so depressed these days and to not be able to talk to anyone about it. I cant wait to buy my tickets for moz Friday when they go on sale. Please please please don't cancel this time or I will die. Might go with Mallary to numbers Friday, I need some ( Read more... ) -
Blah blah blah St.(upid) Valentine's day.....
Staying in tonight and watching Reality Bites, Say Anything and Urban Cowboy. This day needs to end quick....