But blah blah valentine's day is like 4 days away. Should I just insert another long depressing rant on here. Yeah why the fuck not. I remember people used to read this like back in the early 2000s bc I used to write witty things on here or funny observations. Blah I'm over that. I know it sounds lame but all I want is to love someone. Hold hands, ( Read more... )

Saw an old random couple holding hands at work today and I was on the verge of tears. It's sad that I can already conclude I will never experience that. I'm tired of being alone and I give up on ever talking to girls period. All dissapointing and my expectations are just too high. Oh well I'm not impressive and fun to be around so I get it ladies. ( Read more... )

Why are you so good that I watch you again 3 days later. The dialogue reminds me a lot of Donnie darko when apt is talking to tiffany and a lot if it reminds me of eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. It's such a good movie even though it's kind of considered a rom com. I can't believe I wrote it off because they made it off to be like a football ( Read more... )

Went and hung out with after eating some wings with onion rings and iced tea with Tim and Steve. I hate when my mom is sick because I feel so hopeless, we just watched the golden girls until she went to bed. I hate seeing women I care about hurting. I ended up driving home crying and thinking of that you are my sunshine song she used to sing to me ( Read more... )

Went to Moon Tower tonight and hung out with Tim Darby, Mireille, Kevin Cogan and Matt Tremont sober while they all drank beers. I took my 3 year pork abstinence and broke it and got an amazing bacon burger cleverly titled the Cheech. It was really good seeing Matt Rivas there. Kevin is going to try to book some folk bands at this old church from ( Read more... )

Either you gave birth and became a mom or something drastic has happened to a family member of mine here or in Slovakia but I'm sure it's the latter. Fuck my life, I don't even want to know. Life is shit.

I just take my iPod and go for a walk and listen to depressing music while I chain smoke. Haggard's misery and gin, Walker's I feel like Hank Williams tonight and basically every song off bona drag. Being alone and depressed is running its course full throttle, life stinks like the stench off 225 at night. Hopefully life gets better but knowing my ( Read more... )

Watched this movie earlier today, a really good movie with Ben Affleck?!?!? Yeah he's a great actor when he's directing movies ughh still upset about him playing the new batman. Movie reminded me alot of the first two times I went to Czechoslovakia at 6 and 8 years old and how it was not cool to flaunt that you were American. My mom would always ( Read more... )

My mom asked me about you yesterday and I finally told her you're pregnant with a baby boy. She asked if I knew the guy I lied and said no even though I've met billy or William whatever he wants to go by. I didn't talk shit about him like yeah after 3 months of dating she got pregnant or how you used him for drinks last year at genes when me you ( Read more... )

Don't have my iPod on me and my phone doesn't have the song so I'm just going to loop this video until I pass out.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zv1zy-7-PgE&sns=em