I am an idiot, maybe. Probably.

And I thought the hard part was over. I don't even understand how I get involved in these clusterfucks. And as tired as I am of blindly navigating through these miserable character building experiences, I'm quite curious to see how things turn out at this point.

Good to know. Guess I'll stop trying to open that can of worms.

I've been making some strange decisions lately. Not necessarily bad ones. Just ones that are not very congruent with my idea of myself. I'm not really sure what to make of this.

Why does every little thing just drop me to the fucking ground? You think I would be accustomed to this shit by now, but no. I can't handle anything, ever. Fuck.

I feel that I am nearing a point of capitulation. So much for the revolution.

The thing that scares me the most about people is how they are able to justify anything.

You think that's crazy? You don't know the half of it.

I suppose it is probably for the best in the long run. Things can now run their course naturally. But it makes everything so much worse for me right now. I am so unfathomably jealous about the entire situation. As petty as it is, that was about the only thing I was looking forward to. Even though I really shouldn't even be concerning myself ( Read more... )

Just keep twisting that knife there.