i hate how everyone knows everyone.

i feel alone and insecure and that u might leave me. i dont know how to love and be loved.  i'm so over csun, i'm so over the past. i'm done with people being full of shit. i just wanna make money and please myself. i wish i was stronger.  live life do my thing.

i've never had such a hard time getting over someone.  i feel like my heart weighs 27389237 pounds.  i pray every day that the pain will go away and my heart will feel free again.  i can't get him out of my head. i keep hoping he's going to come around and apologize with a huge boquet of flowers in his hands. why do i have high hopes for something ( Read more... )

im 18 in 2 hours 2 minutes. id ont give a shit. dont know what to do for my bday........dont care.....ha.

i am very much disappointed in the opposite sex. losing all faith. 
ahaaa.

 i'm leaving for russia tomorrow.

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i'm nervous and excited and don't know what to expect and uhhhhh.....i hope i have an amazing time.

 i'm supposed to hang out with a boy whose sister fucked me over completely in a few hours. I think i am out of my mind.  it's really weird having such a clean room haha. i love how another boy said he was going to call as soon as he woke up and its 7pm. HAHH. just shut the fuck up. STOP PROMISING ME SHIT and not go through with it. it is SOOO

i give up on life.

funny
i REALLy do not understand how someone can initiate hanging out and getting back into eachother's lives then completely blowing you off

the fuckkkk

hahah gofuck yourself you stupid unworthy of USC pot head loser.

hmffffffffffff.

 i know i am just bored and looking for fun and for something exciting to happen.  love is supposed to happen when you least expect it.   i dont understand that but i hope someday soon i will.