I went to the Doctor's yesterday, and for the first time ever when they asked me how i was, i was honest.

As a result i have now been placed in a councilling programme on sleeping tablets and anti-depressants.

It was the first time i'd sat down and actually thought about how i was feeling, and i scared myself.

The Dr said to me, dont be scared ( Read more... )

Ok well i feel suitably bored to update this now.

The problem i have is that i have so much nonsense bubbling around in my head that it takes effort and imagination to change it to suitable words and phrases that others might understand.

I've never been a vocal person as far as my feelings are concerned, i prefer to keep my "cards close to my ( Read more... )

Following a trend i seem to have missed over the weekend ...... please feel free....

I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less.

Ask me anything you want. Really. I'll answer anything.

Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.

Surzy xx

Love Will Come Through :: Travis

If I told you a secret
You won't tell a soul
Will you hold it and
Keep it alive

Cause it's burning a hole
And I can't get to sleep
And I can't live alone
In this life

So look up, take it away
Don't look da-da-da-down
The mountain

If the world isn't turning
Your heart won't return
Anyone, anything, anyhow

So ( Read more... )

After a complaint i have decided to elaborate a bit more on my Trip lol (Just for you Angie)

Motive

For the last few months i have felt like i have been in a rut somewhat. Same old shit different day, you know what i mean. Wednesday morning, my head finally snapped, for no particular reason other than for my own simple amusement i decided that i ( Read more... )

It was quite an eventful week by all accounts.

Monday, went back to work then over to Warrington to a night of frivolity. Great new location.

Tuesday again, back to work and then over to Birkenhead,managed to catch up with Sara, not seen her for ages so that was great.

Wednesday, well, officially my day off. Feeling a bit bored i decided that i ( Read more... )

Well if i celebrate one thing today its that someone that was very close to me has begun to open up to me again. After a month or so of the cold shoulder treatment it feels great :D I can't begin to explain how hurt i felt when i was shut out,  but after nearly 4 years of the same cycle i had all but decided to admit defeat and give up on one of my ( Read more... )

Do you ever get the feeling that you are destined to wander the planet alone forever because no-one could possibly ever love you.

I feel like that today.

All around me, happy people pairing off, finding happiness in someone elses, eyes, touch and words.

But its never me, am i too picky? Too scared? Too nervous or unconfident to open up to someone ( Read more... )

I think i've got Laryngitis :( Ouch

Off work today, so i'm really bored.

Sometimes i love to be by myself, content with my own thoughts and company.

Othertimes I crave company, another point of view, someone to disagree with me, someone to laugh with, someone's shoulder to borrow when i need to cry, just other people around to stop me feeling ( Read more... )

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