So v-day came and went. I dressed super fly and ended up drinking memosas with D and his hipster friends and had a pleasant evening, but nothing more than that. A platonic night, but not still enjoyable all the same.

two nights later i confessed my feelings for him

it went... well, but we're not an item - nor is there any big rush on either of our ( Read more... )

well, its been a hot minute since I updated this thing, so I guess it's finally time to do it

it's v-day... I'm not super excited, but still hopeful that SOMETHING positive might happen today, cause damn it I'm really fucking tired of all the crappy stuff happening on days that I actually try to be positive for. I have no date, nor any kind of plan ( Read more... )

I honestly don't know how I feel today. I would say I'm releived, but I'm not. I would say I'm happy, but I'm not. I would say I'm sad, but I'm not. I would say I'm excited, but I'm really not. it's the last day of the semester and I'm just... here today. the campus looks so empty and depressing with no people on it - at least from my view from the ( Read more... )

I am.... ambivalent at best about winter break. I just don't know how I should feel. i'm excited to be away from responsibility for a while, but at the same time I'll have no car,  no job, and no definite plans which makes me weary and a little sad. On top of that, there's no guarantee I'll see anyone I care about with any regularity, which makes ( Read more... )

I loved this song anyway by the general groove/feeling and the few random english lyrics thrown in, but now that I've read the translation I love it even more because it reflects how I feel perfectly. These are the words I've never really had words for <3

I'm including the lyrics and the song, just to preserve this moment so I can remember this ( Read more... )

There's not a lot to say other than I went out with Dan last night instead of going to class and we talked epically in my car again for almost 4 hours. I really, really, really, really like this guy a lot and I hope it ends up going somewhere ;3

The night before, baby jacob gave me a lift to my car (cause i park off campus) and we epically talked ( Read more... )

So last night was Halloween and I spent a majority of the day writing that blasted esay that I put off all last week, but it's finished [woot!] and I ended up going out with Kayla and Miku to Kyle and Tony's house for a small shindig. I had a lot of fun, and got to hang out with the twins - which hasn't happened in a while - so that was awesome. We ( Read more... )

Last night was AWESOME!!!! not in the sense that a lot of cool things happened or that there was any kind of amazing experience, but I did spend about 4, almost 5 hours with the guy that I like one-on-one in my car. no sexytimes, no making out, not really any physical contact even - we just talked about random stuff and hung out in a neighborhood ( Read more... )

Surprisingly, things have been better for me. I feel myself today (and have the last couple days) and it feels great. On the downside, there's some CRAZY drama with my bestie and i'm super concerned about her and her fam so it's stressful, but hopefully things will work out. it truly sucks right now, and it profoundly breaks my heart, but i have a ( Read more... )

ok, so one day, me and kayla were surfing google and we found a pic of emile hirsch pasted on a bedroom scene:

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