today's youth of america depresses me. i think i've found my calling in life, to dedicate myself to improving people and the world. it apalls me how outwardly ignorant other students in my school are (i'm pointedly talking about the freshman) and how rude and disrespectful they are to their teachers. then i hear of all these horrible events ( Read more... )

i don't understand how i can be myself in my head, but in front of other people i completely change subconsciously and unwillingly.

tomorrow is our one-year. today we are celebrating it. i'm really excited, but i'm afraid of how he will react to what i wrote in my card to him. i'm really afraid.

i think people who rant their problems about other people on the back of bathroom stalls are very sad people.
poor alex g.

i think having a passion to learn is so much more valuable than good grades.
but nobody has that passion anymore except for me, it seems.

i wrote/drew a secret to send to postsecret. i haven't mailed it yet though. i have a feeling that it will sit on the bottom of my purse forever, just like it's been sitting at the bottom of my heart and of my mind ( Read more... )

i like life right now for the most part. i like life when i'm not in my house. but only for a week. no work, no drama practice, just relaxation. after thursday though, i have alot to deal with. auditions, sat II's, driving with someone who is angry with me right now. it's not something i want to deal with. i'd rather just curl up into a little ball ( Read more... )

"you bitchy, self-righteous, spoiled little shit! i don't give a fuck what you want!"- M.P.U.

so i sit here with exactly 13 minutes left until the bell rings. right now my life is to both extremes of living life to the most and feeling like it is monotonous. sometimes i'm in such a good mood, loving nature and life and love and friends, and opportunites that i've finally chosen to take, but other moments i feel as if what i'm doing now, ( Read more... )

i find it interesting how i can read my emotional and mental progress through this livejournal. i read a couple posts from the beginning of my sophomore year and i sound so different. to me, at least. i suppose that's maturity for you ( Read more... )

so i'm not so sad these days anymore. i guess because i'm around everyone now and it's nice. justin told me today that he's angry at me because i never called him during the summer. i feel bad. some people may think he's joking but i know justin very well and i know he was kind of upset. only a little though. it's not like justin to be too ( Read more... )