The rush I feel when I'm with you ( Read more... )

Wow.. okay could this weekend be any worse? First on Friday I get in trouble by a cop... Yeah that's right. I got in trouble by a cop and now I have a permeant record. Go me. Then today (Saturday) some kid said I was fat, a slut, and that I should hid my eyes behind glasses because they are big... Know what I say? Fuck the stupid, low life, asshole ( Read more... )

hey baby... BEN'S A DOUCHE...Tyler is my new lover... until Ben calls me... lol

Hey everyone. A lot has happend since I last wrote in this thing...I'm so confused. I will have one great moment with Ben but then he won't call me for like 2 days after. I don't get it. What am I supposed to do. I'm so envious of everyone who has someone and knows they are all yours. I mean sometimes I just have to wonder if Ben is with someone ( Read more... )

Hey everyone! What's up? Wow... Today I realized that I do love Ben. Man I hate this. Why do I have to love him? He is so great yet I never know what's going on in his head. I wish I just knew what he was thinking all the time so I wouldn't have to wonder if he was using me or thinking about someone else. I mean how am I suppose to know if he is ( Read more... )

I LOVE BEN!!!! THIS SUCKS BAD.... Do you think I'm in love with him?

hey everyone. Today I went to my best friend's brother's birthday party. Man was that crazy. I think all people over the age 5 and under the age 15 hate me. HAHA. I think it's really funny, but it's all good because I don't like like kids anyways... And for sure not 14 year olds. Stupid kids. 14 year olds suck really really really bad. 14 year olds ( Read more... )

Okay... Last night Chris Paas called and was trying to be all cool. He told me he had my back and he wanted to tell me something. Then he told me that Ben the guy I like was having sex with this girl named Melinda. (He kinda has a history with Melinda but I'm pretty sure he wouldn't have sex with her) Well that made me really angry and sad and ( Read more... )

Okay... This week has been a super long and hard week. I dunno what to do about anything anymore. I feel as if my life is one big mess. Everything I do seems to some how piss someone off. I feel as if my best friend (yes Cassandra) is mad at me and I have no idea why. Then there is this long complacted thing with me and Ben and I dunno what to do ( Read more... )