this was a collapse day. the sort wherein i cease proper function while the sun still sits heartily on clouds and crumple into a pile of worthlessness - dead to most tangibilities. i've awakened at 3am to delve into the murky internet seas to discover once again that i spread myself too thin in far too many capacities. i've no outstanding facets ( Read more... )

this mess of circuitboards is the wrench on my tummy - leading me quickly to believe in life, people, concepts. but it's a paper doll; though fashionable and seemingly perfect in every season and fashion trend, every bull or bear market, it's still fucking imaginary and misleading. i'm living the folger's taste test commercial; acquantances and ( Read more... )

the internal pressure has dropped again, and, like the collapsable straw, i am angled over, eyes incapable of lifting from the lower horizon, the invisible lips pressed against me - innards lost to her wanting belly. the coterie of sounds frequently visit, their stay welcomed but disatisfying; the night turns and they stray forward to better ( Read more... )

shifts in demeanor would incline one to think that things have changed. i feel awkward and deshevelled, misguided and lost in a path i dream was laid out at one point. further examination proves i never really had a plan, never looked up from my feet as i trod further and further down the graveled road. but i can sense a change. i can sense the ( Read more... )

celebrate the womb escape. i'm a wispy 24 today and about as well off as i was six years ago when the future was a delightful farce; hardly avoidable was the "you've such a bright future ahead of you, you're so talented". or something within those lines of brown and traditionally painted nosing ( Read more... )

i'm considering that babbling without purpose is unnecessary regardless of my initial reaction. upon signing up, it almost seems required to form some sort of textual introduction though i'm quite without the benefits of concentration or general cleverness. it's a long day without substance and would surely be reflected in this exodus. but i ( Read more... )