so i sit here and i find myself crying, but for once they are not tears or depression, they are tears of happiness. i dont think that i have ever been this happy in my life! i love you soooo much!!!!!

love you......08/06/2003 :)

well, im a little bored and i have had this in my head for a little while so i guess ill write it now. i am still depressed and i think that i get more depressed day by day, but i am learning not to show it as much. i think that i am getting used to the fact that nothing will ever happen and slowly i am accepting that fact, even though it kills ( Read more... )

well, i thoght that we were staying the night at my house tonight, but it guess not. oh well, i had fun tonight anyways. i decided that i would right the entry that i wanted to write for some time now, but i just hate to write and i would rather jsut keep things to myself. my life has been miserable lately, especially in like the last month or ( Read more... )

i am having my doubts about whether to do this or not. if i do i just dont think that anything will ever be the same but that is just what i think from past experiences.

i need to do something but i am still really confused and dont know if i can and/or want to do it : /

yup, so i knew that it was too good to be true. will someone ever love me again? why is it that no one loves me? is it because i am too nice? is it because i am like a teddy bear that everyone says that i am? because i am not really a typical guy? i am sensitive and i listen to peoples problems? i dont talk about sex 24/7, because i actually ( Read more... )

my first all-nighter! i actually stayed up instead of falling asleep at like 7 or 730:)
just thought that i would write that since i am bored.

i hate live journal. it is supposed to be a place that u can write all of ur thoughts down in, but i have too many thoughts that go through my head that whenever i want to write i just cant remember all of them. i have wanted to write this entry for about a week now, but i have either been too lazy or tired to write it. i had a pretty cool talk ( Read more... )

i had like the best time that i have had in a while yesterday. i was in such a good mood, and i dont really know why. i havent been in that good of a mood in a very long time, it felt great. oh well, thats all i can write right now, so i can take a shower before work. bye yall.

so i sit here and think, like i do most nights. my life is so messed up, i dont even see the point in living any more. i really only feel totally comfortable talking about my problems to one person, but that one person, i know doesnt really want to listen, and probably doesnt care any way ( Read more... )