I don't know what the heck is wrong with me. I really honestly haven't felt so good lately... I feel like I rely too much on everyone else to keep me sane, to keep me happy, to keep me alive and kicking. I rely too much on what will happen in the future, and I look so far back into the past that I often completely miss the present and it becomes ( Read more... )

I'm chillin' at my Steve's house and its now 1:30 am. The play is almost done! I have one more night to go and as much as I love it... all I have to say is "good riddance!" Work sucked today... got yelled at by the boss and got freaked out by something I'd rather not mention. At least I had good food all day and good company to indulge my "sorrows ( Read more... )

Well.... that's it! I need to make lists for everything now. You'd think I was 70 suffering memory loss the way I've been acting lately. One word=STRESS, but hey... I'm going to try and take control now! Here's how... I'm going to write things as they come into my head so I can sort it out later. At that pace, here's what one of my lists would end ( Read more... )

I have been in such a down mood lately but I came to a hurtful, yet much needed conclusion yesterday... I am the only one to blame for my bad mood. Sure, I have alot of extra stress piling up right now (but who doesn't?) and my saddness/anger are results of all the crap in my life: family difficulties, the play, school, work, heartbreaking ( Read more... )

LOL I'm plain worn out! I have been running and running and running and running and all I want to do is just remain in bed for the next two weeks! (Ok that was a bit much but you get the idea) All day rehearsal was yesterday (which literally takes all day!) and then today I had to work. Luckily, I got to see my Steve for awhile after that for a ( Read more... )

I haven't updated here in forever! (I know you all were really deprived of my ramblings...not!) I have been way busy and way too caught up in other affairs... Here's an update on the thrilling *cough cough* life of ME ( Read more... )

Well I have been a busy girl and that is not going to change until school is frickin out... Nichole and I leave for our trip up north on Saturday which is so exciting. I need a break! First to my grandparents place and then to Frankenmuth! I want Bavarian Inn chicken NOW! LOL Work has sucked but nothing new there... Went rollerblading with Steve ( Read more... )

I've been complaining in here alot and I wanna apologize for my bitterness. I just haven't been myself lately, and I want to change. Thanks to all of you who have given me encouraging words. I cling to them more than you'll ever realize. I cannot wait for frickin Spring Break. I need to get outta school and relax. I need to find my inner peace and ( Read more... )

It's Saturday morning and where am I at you ask? I am at school! Eww! I have to get this stupid research thing done but I'm online fooling around. I'm os bad lol ;) I just have to get 2 more sources, bullshit a page on how I'm going to use my research and then I can call it a day. I got up @ like 11 which is so unlike me but another late night will ( Read more... )

LOL Yeah, so I'm supposed to be in my English lecture right now but seeing as I've only missed it once this entire semester and I have discussion for it in like 20 minutes, I'm not heartbroken... Plus, I need to update in here and get all my thoughts out before starting a major research thingy later on today. This is the only time I have free which ( Read more... )