"Maybe I've been the problem, maybe I'm the one to blame but even when I turn it off and blame myself, the outcome feels the same ( Read more... )

Well, I had fun last night. I helped Kev highlight his hair (hopefully I didn't do too bad in his eyes), baked some cookies, went to church, and then I went to my Aunt Sue's house with Amanda. We chilled and fooled around online until midnight, then I booked on outta there. I had some fun times left elsewhere. My parents have been ultra cool about ( Read more... )

Well, I'm back from up north! It was fun. I had a second Christmas with ANOTHER big dinner (I need to lay off the rich, heavy foods. Holy crap I haven't eaten this much all December!) I wanted to go cross country skiing again this year but since the snow was basically ice, that was impossible so I sat around watching tv, eating, listening to my ( Read more... )

I've been so busy this year that I never saw Christmas coming.... this is so unlike me. Ask any of my closest friends and they'll tell you I'm usually the first to be done with both my shopping and wrapping, I am usually frickin Santa Claus, I make Christmas cookies and write out multitudes of cards, I sing Christmas songs, I am usually a cheesy, ( Read more... )

Today just kinda sucked. I slept in (if you can call 8:45 that) and chilled out around the house until I had to leave for work at 1:00. I worked frickin 8 hours and I am just drained now. I don't feel like doing anything but going to bed, but I've gotten to that point where you're so tired you can't sleep anymore. I'm becomming an insomniac I swear ( Read more... )

This weekend certainly had it's ups and downs. Friday was our work Christmas party (awesome time, good food, friends, laughing, gift giving, warm fuzzy feelings). Afterwards was fun too for me. ;) Saturday I had to work all day then I spent the bette part of the night studying for my PS final. Today, (well now the calendar reads Monday, so....) ( Read more... )

I really really want to have fun this weekend, but I know I should study at least a little bit for my Political Science final (but I don't wanna!) I'm sick of school, I turned in my last frickin paper and now I'm wasting my life on MySpace when I should be cracking open the books (but I really don't care!) LOL Yea so Christmas is 9 days away and I' ( Read more... )

I am so buried under false ideals and hopes and promises... I don't know where to go from here. What do you do when you can't trust your heart anymore? What do you listen to when your head tells you a million different things and all of them sound right? I have so many things I want but none of them feel like they are in my grasp. I have so many ( Read more... )

Stay away from me please ( Read more... )

Well I went to good ol' Lakeview for tryouts (for the "Music Man") last night and let me tell you, it was kinda weird. I felt like I shouldn't have been there, but everyone was happy to see me at least. That's one good thing about theatre, the friends you make there are for life. I haven't been singing or dancing at all lately so I was more nervous ( Read more... )