i miss something that was never going to happen. i just want this crazy, stuck, frustrated, somewhat lonely feeling to go away. i had forgotten what is was like to be this sad. which means i've been happy for a while now and that was amazing but only to matched by the crushing blow. not even a blow just a chipping away; as low as was high. i now ( Read more... )

soemthing is up with me. i can't put my finger on it. it feels a little bit lonely, lot frustrated and some anger thrown is just cause. grrr. we'll see.

i guess i don't really think so, but sometimes its hard not to worry...

boy i needed that!

so i live in Milwaukee now, at least until May. any suggestions?

thanks to everyone for your thoughts prayers and "hugs"

DOES NOT HAVE CANCER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

monday i go in to have a doctor check out the lump i found 13 days ago. stats and family history say i'll be fine but there's still 10% doubt and that doubt hurts.

i have so much to express but i can't ever seem to have time, energy and attention all at the same time ( Read more... )

stuck in Henryland...
3 weeks of tech...
all over on the 26th
opening i.will.be.intoxicated....heavily