It's hard to believe today is my last final. After this, I'll be through. Through with my third semester. Gah. I can't wait to take Latin and more Archaeology in the fall, and I seriously hope I don't get too poor a grade on this last final. I'm going to be taking a lot more classes with Indian Jones (and probably going with him to his dig in ( Read more... )

Well. I'm back where I started. I really thought I'd never feel this again, at least, not over James. Weeks (months?) after having broken up with him, I realized that I wanted him back. Or at least that I still had feelings for him and had made a mistake by breaking up with him without trying to work things out. And once I realized that, of course ( Read more... )

Godddddd damn it.

I should have insisted that we watch the movie at my house. I should have known going there would be terrible. I should have known by the way his mother didn't quite look at me, the shock I felt at seeing his Paris portrait, the tug at my heart I felt upon seeing the pets. Even though the living room was empty of everything I ( Read more... )

oh, the joy of hearing one's own voice!
the way he called it out, stirring me from the beautiful depths of calibration, statistics, the universe, as though he'd been looking for me, as though he'd known me his whole life.

it was no mere utterance, but exclamation! it was exclamation with an exclamation mark even - this [ | ] and this [ . ]

and ( Read more... )

So sorry. That last entry...well, I tend to overdo it a little when I write emotional entries past 2am. All those things I said were true, but there were more histrionics than I intended. I guess as a general rule, it's good to realize that if I've posted something after a reasonable hour to be awake, it's going to be more overblown than it needs ( Read more... )

Today I found out Mike is going to move into a house with the guys he's in a band with. This = Amelia without housing plans. This = Amelia in a panic.

So, it's back to craigslist. I've forgotten how to write those emails describing myself to people, telling them the best and coolest things about myself with the hopes that I'll win their hearts and ( Read more... )

I wish I could say I know it's summer because of the beautiful weather, skimming my toes in creek water while spending time reading books for fun, not for school. I wish I could say I'd put on flip flops and sunglasses, and lay out in the sunshine, and that's how I knew it was finally summer.

But no, I'm afraid not. There are no creeks nearby, ( Read more... )

Everything about today was good ( Read more... )

Today I decided not to go to History. I got off MUNI after almost missing my stop, went up to the classroom, sat there for about five minutes in the empty room, and realized I just could not do it today. So instead I went down to the cafe in front of the Humanities building and had some tea. Lia came and decided to not go to Sign Language, so we ( Read more... )

[Again and again, however we know the landscape of love]

Rainer Maria Rilke

Again and again, however we know the landscape of love ( Read more... )