"A rage against this soft-tinted, shallow, standardized and sterilized life, and a mad craving to smash something up, a department store, say, or a cathedral, or myself."
-Hermann Hesse

Being sad makes me tired.
Being angry makes me tired.
Being in social situations makes me tired.
Being hungry makes me tired.
Being stressed makes me tired.
Being in pain makes me tired.
So yeah, I'm just tired pretty much all the time.

“The swineherd cannot already be wed to the princess when he embarks on his adventures, nor can the boy knock on the witch’s door when she is already away on vacation. The wicked uncle cannot be found out and foiled before he does something wicked. Things must happen when it is time for them to happen. Quests may not simply be abandoned; prophecies ( Read more... )

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So the last couple days I've been in a Tomb Raider mood, and that got me thinking about the 2013 reboot. I enjoyed the game a lot, but something about it had always felt a little off, in particular something about Lara's characterization. It'd been bothering me since the game came out, but I only fully realized what bothered me about it a few days ( Read more... )

So, in the weird social arrangement of my life, there aren't a lot of people I really consider my friends, and none of the ones I do consider friends are people I actually met. They are all people brought in by my brothers, and though some I have befriended since and become close to, a lot of them are just people I end up socializing with because ( Read more... )

I've been thinking about my writing the last few days. Writing is a huge part of my life, be it my fiction, poetry, or my journal entries. When I'm not actually physically writing, I'm doing it in my head. I'm "writing" during my commute; while exercising; at the grocery store; in the shower; doing chores; on break at work. It's something I'm very ( Read more... )

I have a weird relationship with all my crafts, but mostly sewing. The majority of my skills are self taught, and most don't even come from reading a book or watching a video, but are literally me just looking at something and figuring out a way on my own to replicate it. Which is great in some ways, but usually leads to me reaching a point in said ( Read more... )

I feel like crap all the time lately; My period started and I can't even cross my arms without being in extreme pain. I've been nauseated almost every day for the last two weeks. I can barely summon the energy to pull myself out of bed each morning, and despite spending the day in a state of exhaustion, when I finally do get to bed I can't actually ( Read more... )

I've been referencing my resolutions for this year a lot, so I thought I might as well put them up here.

01. learn a new language
02. drop 4 dress sizes
03. cultivate an air of mystery
04. try new things
05. finish a novel
05. do what makes me happy, sensible or not
07. become what i pretend to be