"Saigon... shit; I'm still only in Saigon... Every time I think I'm gonna wake up back in the jungle. When I was home after my first tour, it was worse. I'd wake up and there'd be nothing. I hardly said a word to my wife, until I said "yes" to a divorce. When I was here, I wanted to be there; when I was there, all I could think of was getting back ( Read more... )

i am surrounded by irony,
its unbelievable sometimes.

just because you do the right thing doesn't mean things are going to turn out in your favor,
its not fair, but i'm slowly starting to fully understand that concept.

thats really okay though, i just want to be that better man.

 maybe i do just need to face it and realize that i'm oh so desperate.

the tradgedy is that i dont have a tradgedy.

 if there are a couple of people in a room and they all believe that there is a chair in the middle of the room, then there might as well be a chair ( Read more... )

The summer sunsets were his favorite part of summer.    He knew all he had do to was to say "fuck off" to all of his responsibilities and go against everything he had been taught to value in order to truly enjoy the summer sunsets.  However, he could never say goodbye.  His own sense of responsibility was too great to abandon his family and friends ( Read more... )

 Today I depart on a journey.

A journey I have been dreaming about nearly my whole life.

it's not the endpoint, but the journey that makes it all worth while.

the truth of this statement is only too perfect for the description of my first year of college.
This year, i started off lost at a giant university.  Knowing only a few, trusting less. 
My first semester was one of insanity.  The things I did, the things i witnessed pushed me ( Read more... )

 DMX rocks but at the same time is an asshole.  He played our house last night, got here late because we didnt have the right car, started late, cops shut down concert, crowd semi-riots, objects thrown, "fuck the police" chants, mace is sprayed, stampede of kids, 20 cop cars, dmx taken away by security, i puke.

all this in my fraternities front yard ( Read more... )

i miss the person i was back in highschool.  My leisure time was much higher and i could ponder anything i wished to ponder...
back then i had a lot more faith in human beings.  Back then i believed that happiness could be reached through the exploration of truth.  I had a drive to find the truth in all things.  
Intellectually and spiritually i was ( Read more... )

 i woke up this morning in my own bed and realized that i really did not want to go back IU ( Read more... )