Day in and day out . . . I struggle to keep from slipping into the comforting sludge of depression. Truthfully, I do not entirely succeed, but I manage to keep moving forward. I feed my son. I try to play with him. I read. I try to stay connected. But, really, I am becoming less and less capable. I have begun to long for oblivion . . . cessation ( Read more... )

Trying . . . attempting to keep active and to stay positive . . .
Trying . . . my patience, my optimism, my faith . . .

Baseball-
well, this seems self-explanatory to me, but I could be specific and mention that I am a fan of the San Francisco Giants. However, it is also the game itself, whoever plays. I love watching-or hearing about- perfectly executed double play, for example. And listening is actually an important part of this to me: I love to listen to radio ( Read more... )

I had an interesting conversation with Tim last night. Part of it was centered on a statement a friend of ours made that her problems with addiction, now that she is clean and involved with NA, give her a built-in system of support that people without an addiction problem don't have. We discussed the idea of living consciously, of being aware of ( Read more... )

So, we now have lettuces, strawberries, basil, oregano, thyme, rosemary, sage, parsley, eggplant, onions, tomatoes, cucumbers, fennel, and pumpkins planted. Rowan loves to water the pots when he gets home from school. We moved some things around and have our pot of carnations in a bed with our Buddha and the pink flamingos all surrounded by pots of ( Read more... )

I send out resumes. I hear nothing. I send out more resumes. I hear more nothing. Oh well ( Read more... )

I was told that I should hear something about the job I interviewed for by Monday. That was yesterday. Have yet to hear anything. I know that could mean a lot of things; a lot of things that don't necessarily have anything to do with the position they are trying to fill, or what they think about me. It is very difficult to keep thinking positively ( Read more... )

The job interview this morning went well. I'm confident they liked me and consider me a strong candidate for the position. They had another 5 or 6 interviews scheduled for today and tomorrow, and then they will be making a decision. They were going to wait until all the first interviews were completed to determine if a second round of interviews ( Read more... )

Well! I have a real-live job interview tomorrow. It is only the second interview, and only the third response, I have received since I started sending out applications in late January. I am nervous. 

Rowan turns 6 on Tuesday. We had a birthday party for him last night. We made pizzas from scratch: we had the dough all prepared and various toppings for people to create their own. We also made ice cream so we could have sundaes or floats. It was fun. Rowan got spoiled by several of the adoring adults in his life: my parents, Tim's mom, and ( Read more... )