It is 10:30 am on Wednesday. I have sent out resumes or filled out on-line applications for 6 jobs so far this week. I wonder if I will receive any calls? I know what it is like to be inundated with responses to a job posting. I know what it is like to have to integrate choosing who to call into an already full work schedule. This helps me to be ( Read more... )

So, I filed a claim for Unemployment Insurance benefits online 21 days ago. I have not received any paperwork, so I called this morning. Apparently, my claim was "lost in the system" even though I have a confirmation number. The woman took my claim over the phone and back dated it to Feb. 3rd. Now, I wait 5-7 business days to receive paperwork. I ( Read more... )

The diamond light of my son: brilliant, white, flaring in a moment of smiling eternity--my father's smile leaping through generations. Blinding brightness captures time in a universe of joyful present: a gift of knowing, sons and daughters, fathers and mothers, distilled from memory and ignorance into a golden grace of love. And time moves again. ( Read more... )

It's been a pretty good week. I started the belly dancing class. I have an appointment for an assessment to get my medication through county mental health services. I faxed the required income and tax documents for Rowan's financial aid. I sent out some resumes. But, I have been down today. I did forget to take my antidepressants three days in a ( Read more... )

I got home about half an hour ago-and I've just finished dinner: meatloaf, broccoli, German potato salad. I needed it-I started a belly dancing class tonight and I must say, I am getting old! Doing neck rotations sounds like a bowl of Rice Krispies! It felt good over all, though. I'm glad I;m doing it. Plus, Lori and I are doing it together and it' ( Read more... )

Currently on the phone with County Mental Health Services so I can get seen by a psychiatrist and continue to have medication. This is a good thing, as I need to have this in order to function. I would be alright for awhile without it, but, eventually, I will become hostile and suicidal. Not the way I want to live in the world. I have accepted that ( Read more... )

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I find that I don't always know when I'm starting to get angry. It sneaks up on me. I realize after a few days that I'm starting to shut down and not interact with people. This is a very bad thing. First of all, not being aware of my own emotions. Second, the shutting down. Third, the blow-up. But, I am getting better and I am learning to ( Read more... )

I'm trying to keep busy. I haven't been as successful this week as I'd hoped. Yesterday I slept a lot. And played around on the computer. At the end of the day, though, instead of giving up in disgust, I got up and did some work online that I needed to do. This morning, I've already applied to one job and found another I'm looking into. I try to ( Read more... )

I'm waiting for the King cake to cool so I can ice it and decorate it. I've got stock on the stove for the gumbo. I'm looking forward to Mardi Gras dinner tomorrow. The fact that I had celery, onion, and parsley leavings in the freezer to add to the shrimp peels and some chicken to make stock tonight makes me feel very domestic. And, Tim has been ( Read more... )