have no written this in a longggggglonglong time. so basically i have a boyfriend :) one i ACTUALLY LIKE and i am so very happy! work is sucking even more since the store moved across the parking lot. i hate all the new people there except maybe one or two. i HATEHATEHATE fortune because she looks like a praying mantis and i just want to smack her ( Read more... )

halloween fucking sucked. probably because my friends suck but i dont have any friends so i dont have anything to blame it on i guess.
everything is so different, seriously. i cant even rely on people who i used to think i can rely on. and i just want to go away forever and never talk to anyone again.

so college isnt amazing, but it isnt horrible either. its kind of boring.  No one does anything anymore and  that kind of sucks. ive been working a lot lately and i think its affecting my grades in school. i have my bone practical and anatomy test next week. im so screwed. seriously. tomorrow im going to a show at the  crazy donkey to see THE RED ( Read more... )

i just realized that the most exciting  thing that i have done since school started was going to a bar in queens last weekend with people from work to see dave and john play. it was fun because they are crazy and by 5am everyone was delrious talking about random stuff? haha and me and ker didnt go home until 730ish. i need more nights like that

oh college college college. its not that bad but noit that great either. i absolutely hate my nursing class but whats new. i wish i went away to school because it really sucks here, like i dont even want to go out anymore at all
but i lovelovelove this weather<3

well i have officially survived my first week of college and i have so much to do and no time because of a little thingcalled work. awesome. im so sick of this fake town and  these fake people and i just want to meet new awesome people but it doesnt seem like that will be happening because although college is by far better than high school.. it ( Read more... )

i really can't do this anymore

im sick of this fucking shit. i cant fucking wait til college where i wont have to deal with anyone ever fucking again.
IM DONE.

so things are going from bad to worse with this situation. i dont really know how to handle this and i should probably talk to you but i dont think itsfair that i have to initiate the conversations as usual when you know you did something wrong.

im so mad at myself for letting this happen