I feel like my subconscious just knows when another year is approaching. Approaching to the time I so badly crashed & burned into a whirlwind of heartbreak. It feels like just yesterday that my fragile body was trembling knowing it was over. Could not breathe. Could not eat. Could not speak. It'll be 3 years you decided to walk away from me.... 3 ( Read more... )

I can't remember when it was good
Moments of happiness elude
Maybe I just misunderstood
All of the love we left behind
Watching the flashbacks intertwine
Memories I will never findSo I'll love whatever you become ( Read more... )

I was just thinking about the last time Ruben came back to Buffalo- I cried so hard when it came time to say goodbye, and that really was the first time. Uncontrollably. Crying. I never realized, or at least admitted to myself, that I was hurting inside for so long about how much I miss my best friend.. I miss him so much. I really needed to let ( Read more... )

I have been dreading writing about this in here. I would always start an entry but I'd end up staring at a blank screen. I wasn't ready. But tonight seems different ( Read more... )

As I'm coughing and sneezing my head off, I lay in bed, watching The Walking Dead ( really good show so far )- already I'm thinking about the rapture and the end of the world because of this show ( although zombies are not real ), and then I get a phone call saying there will be a government shut down. Nearly 800,000 people will be out of jobs. I ( Read more... )

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MY best is yet to come. No more being hopeful, and more trusting in God.

when the darkness fills my senses ( Read more... )

This is not getting any fucking easier and I cannot stop eating. 

Something has left my life

and I don't know where it went to

Somebody caused me strife

and it's not what I was seeking

Didn't you see me?

Didn't you hear me?

Didn't you see me standing there?

Why did you turn out the lights?

Did you know that I was sleeping?

Say a prayer for me

Help me to feel the strength I did

My identity,

Has it been taken?

Is my heart ( Read more... )