I should audition for Real World! Hahahha... my insanity, insomnia, and uncontrollable urge to socialize and be around people would make me a shoe in ( Read more... )

I'm losing hope for this to get better. I'm losing hope for love. I'm tired of bottled up emotions exploding at the wrong times. I'm tired of the silence on the other end. I'm so hurt and when I start feeling a little better, the pain comes back. What is it about me? Is it even me? It has to be me. It has to be me, how do I fix it? I don't think it ( Read more... )

MANN... I hate feeling down. No real reason why I guess, just things getting to me. Nothing is really the way I want it. I feel stuck. I feel short-changed. I feel confused, forgotten, naive, and stupid. I think it's just because I've been in the house all day. Who knows with me, darn me and my insanely unbalanced emotions!!!

Was nice. Josh invited me to dinner at Trina's with his girlfriend and some of their friends. Wine, awesome food, more wine, more food, wine, wine, and dessert! Everything was sooo delicious! It was also nice to be around a different crowd. We all ended up playing pool later that night and chilling at the usual spots. Fireworks kinda sucked, but oh ( Read more... )

I miss what was "us." I miss being able to say "I love you." I miss being able to call you mine. I miss being yours. I miss calling you my boyfriend and calling you baby. I miss you calling me your baby. I miss what we used to have. I miss going to the park and walking hand in hand. I miss you holding my hand in the car while you drive. I miss ( Read more... )

OMG, it's freaking 4:47am!!! I'm still up, finished my 3 ad series top to bottom, printed and matted, almost an hour ago. YET, I'm still awake debating on if I'll be able to WAKE UP if I go to bed for TWO HOURS! YES, 2 hours before I'm suposed to get up to get ready for my 8am class. THEN, after critique, I'm going to Portfolio Day! Gotta support ( Read more... )

Let's see... Erica had a cruise this past weekend, so she drove here a day early, I took her to the port, picked her up from the port Monday, and she's been hangin out since. My bro also popped in unannounced and is here visiting also. Last weekend Brittany, Shannon and I got their place together and broke it in. Peanut started massage school, I'm ( Read more... )

about saving love... let it DIE and BURN in HELL!!!!!!!!!!! **sadistic evil cackle** MUAHAHHAAA!!!!

If you know what makes you happy, fight for it with all you've got. When you've found love, don't let it slip through your fingers without gripping onto it so hard it hurts. I'm not sure where this is all coming from, but all I can say is losing love makes the world that little bit duller. You manage, you survive, you move on, but in those moments ( Read more... )

There's definitely been "unexpected" occurrances lately. I've been hanging out a lot with Brittany, we've been trying to get through the lonliness and maybe some boredom, haha. It's definitely been fun... out drinking by the beach, going to the gym, getting healthy meals together, and chilling at my place. We even helped Tim put together a romantic ( Read more... )