So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell,
blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a ( Read more... )

Sometimes you feel so doubtful and confused and hurt. You wonder why you deserve this, because all you've ever done is work hard and give it your all. Was that never enough? Or was it too much? But thinking about it does nothing. It doesn't change it, and in the end you still just sit there hurting. Wondering what you did that was so terrible ( Read more... )

I went to Hanging Rock State Park today with Brad. It was interesting, exhausting-like a 3 hour nap in the apartment when we got back-, and intriguing. I hope for more trips like that, though when the lake is open to swim next time-they should really update their website-, because climbing over fences is alright, but it'd be nice to get in the ( Read more... )

I am graduating tomorrow at 10am. Wowza.

Sometimes dreams they don't come true
I was scared that night when I met you

I have a problem with anger sometimes. The way I deal with it is fine, it's always been the way I dealt with it. I guess I learned from my dad, who used to get mad at an innocent bystander or take his anger out on you even if you didn't deserve it. So I have always been the type of person who walks away and at least has 10 minutes alone if not ( Read more... )

Today was a great day. The day where you finally say "hey it's spring."

On another note, I'm really enjoying this. Every single bit of it.

why do people make me angry. Call me if plans change.

Sometimes I get really upset. Stupid things, like my dad getting mad at me for not moving the car over when I was parking for a few so that me and brad could get water to go to the park. Then my dad gets home about 3 hours early and is mad that my car is not all the way on my side of the garage. But brad draws me pictures to make me smile, his ( Read more... )

I'm feeling so emotionally tired, and so much like I add nothing to the group of people I interact with. I don't know my niche within any of them, even early college. I feel like I'm just aggravating the people around me, and I try so hard to be independent and active and easy to deal with. I feel like I add nothing, and that he especially is ( Read more... )