okay so my interests collage made me go back and look at my interests. check it out.
( My Interests Collage! )

everything is okay. i mean i cant reallllyyyy complain.. me and jeff are doing well, the hot tub is being installed as i type this. im getting my job back which means i will soon be out of debt... but i really just dont think that i can survive with out my friends. i just cant. i miss you guys ♥

why the fuck do i even waste my time anymore.. i fucking try after you fucking beg me too.. and i get hurt. HOW THE FUCK does this happen like this. whatever, your a piece of shit and im just sick of you. sick to my fucking stomach. i fucking hate you.and i can wait to get the fuck out of here away from you.

fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

i am so out of the loop.

i am sad. sad sad sad stina.

i feel tired and very un-easy.

my heart pounds everytime i hear the door open and close, but nothing.

i think im okay with this, im just worried.

i want to know that hes not hurting.

bored is not even the word yo.

holy crap, this song totally fucking is me, and him. and i totally feel like shit, i didnt feel anything until just now. hes right, i dont show anything, no love nothing. im so sad. i feel so ruined.

I swallow hard because I know
That what comes next will hurt
(You more than me)
I bite my lip to try to stop it from shaking
The teeth have broken the ( Read more... )

i feel empty and lost.

so i went jogging tonight.. it felt good to move.. my muscles are aching and i love it. i miss this feeling. i cant wait for tommorrow when im super sore and then i go again. it was only for a hald hour and i started out , walking but its way more then i do ever, so its great ( Read more... )