i drink because i want to physically feel the way i do in my heart. i want intensity. i want to look at you with those mad man eyes and for you to understand how it is for me, why i want the pain, why i seek these regrets.

I called him because i felt bad about how i had acted. I knew i had been the one being unreasonable in that particular moment, but in that particular moment i felt i deserved to be unreasonable. A position i deserved in return for how unreasonable he had been to me for the last couple of months. Also i felt provoked, he had asked the question. The ( Read more... )