i should think for some time. this site is going to shift again . this time to ( Read more... )

tomor hav a test. i think i'm just going to use common sense. because i just cant bring myself to study. i'm very tired even though i'm not tired physically/ mentally i also cannot make out ( Read more... )

someone might be leaving soon. my family will hav one less person. an empty chair at the veranda. half an empty bed. i will miss his voice. perhaps his smell and the screaming at him to turn off the tap tightly. the smell of his coffee ( Read more... )

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i'm eliminating / passing out blood... it is not such a good sign i suppose ... after medication ( Read more... )

私は病気今日である

苦痛は次にある

私はそれが立ち去ることを望む

私は愛されていなく感じる

それはそんなに傷つく

それはなぜ私に起こらなければならないか。

so i have gotten the old blog stuff going on. i shall hav to abandon this one... soon. perhaps after all the tests and shit. am feeling so emotionless. its always liddat... perhaps just before a test. i feel numb inside. very very numb inside. or maybe it is because i cried this morning. after a cry. u tend to feel numb inside for the rest of the ( Read more... )

emi is losing herself again? wait a minute... she was already losing herself ( Read more... )

never once had i need to be so accurate in practical work. or would u classify it as hands on stuff ( Read more... )

might it be something serious? cancer? aids? or just a simple inflammation?

the doctors' doors are shut.

i am reduced to my pitiful begging state. breathing is rapid and difficult.

God save mi