yesterday went out with moon and sy... it was very fun ... especially the part when moon called back and in a moment's time they were right beside mi. it felt so wonderful. like you hav friends that really care about you. talked alot. somehow i feel that perhaps i need to quieten down more? listen more to their talk about prawn and HG? but i also ( Read more... )

i will take a walk today.
to think about the things that hav happened to mi.

to see if i'm forcing myself to love him
forcing myself to do the things i dont wan to do
at home, in sch, with life

in reality.
all i wan is peace
and the silence of death.

sch's started for a long time... i wonder if things will be the same. the same thing happening again and again. perhaps i hav the momentum to move on. because i know how the system works, with the lectures and tutorials and all. but now is more of independent study which i can manage. and no more spoon feeding which is good for mi. i prefer things ( Read more... )

am i cruel ( Read more... )

my breathing is laboured right now. must be too much smoking just now ( Read more... )

first impressions always last...
first memories always stay.
everything reminds mi of you.
the past haunts.

even if things go back to normal...
i cant be really happy?
i expect too much...
i'm so afraid of you.

every day tears flow...

this morning woke up early to make soup with a whole lot of herbs and stuff ( Read more... )

today went to sentosa... sentosa brings mi alot of memories. always sweet memories. somehow i like the place alot. i would like to go there alone, during sunset and cry and think about things and my life. i think i shall go soon ( Read more... )

perhaps end times are coming... with earthquakes floods and everything. i see no future for mi. i somehow dun feel or see my future as i did last time. my intuitions always been quite accurate. i dont know about this. that's why i said i dont see my future. perhaps i'd die soon ( Read more... )