today actually made me realize that i didn't do everything completely wrong ( Read more... )

sitting here thinking back to how i was over the last break we had this year.  i was miserable. i didnt want to do anything and i didnt want to go out.  i didnt want to see my friends, and sometimes i didnt even want to get out of bed.  but, i could kick myself the most for letting it ruin my christmas.  i willl never ever give someone the power to ( Read more... )

 so due to a  miserable break i never appreciated the new year and making a resolution and all that jazz.  so i was just thinking back at what i would have wanted my resolution to be and it was obviously to try and work things out with tim..but fuck that.  now i realize that my resolution should have been to hold on and be happy..and to find ( Read more... )

 chris murray told me to kiss guys until it doesn't remind me of tim.
i think i finally got one.

so theres been so much drama on the third floor of eddy and emergency and mandatory floor meeting was called.  it was so mean girls.  the RHD made us play a game and we all had to stand in a circle.  she would ask questions and circumstances..very person questions and circumstances..and if you felt that they applied to you..you stepped into the ( Read more... )

if i wasn't such a terrible person
i could be with the person i love right now.

today slide came on the radio
and i've never ever heard it on the radio ever in my life
i cried hysterically the whole way back to school

fuck this all.

 why does my mom have to be right about everything?
i  r eally regret meeting him.  i just don't know why tim couldn't have been there that night.
but i  really hate tim
more than i've ever hated anyone  in my entire life
i don't care if i never talk to him
he changed so much he's just like every other guy
i can't wait to get into this semester

so  far it ( Read more... )

i wish i coud tell you what i would give for a long phone conversation with the old us.
please God help me get over this.

i stayed in all day today.  whether i was truly sick, or sick because i made myelf that way, i guess i'll never know.  for some reason that i'll never understand i put my sweet 16 tape into the vcr and watched some of my candle ceremony, and there you were.  we were so young, but you could feel and see the love between us.  the speech for you was ( Read more... )

i woke up my mom at 230 am because i just couldn't take it anymore.
i give up.
i'm not letting anyone else decide if my punishment is over, or if i've paid enough for what i've done.

enough is enough.
i've done all that i could possibly think of.
and tonight for the first night in a long time i'm not getting down on my knees like a jackass to pray, ( Read more... )