i work. ALL THE TIME. i feel like i don't exist anymore. i'm not unhappy with my job in the least, but when i'm back home in san francisco i feel like a ghost.

gotta get ready to go to work....

you know those anxiety dreams that people have, where all their teeth fall out or they show up at work/school totally naked? i don't have those dreams. what i mean is that, i do have anxiety dreams, just not those ones ( Read more... )

i have a lot to say. i'm also heavily drugged on painkillers and muscle relaxers. i've noticed that there a lot of entries from my friends talking about their tribulations as women, and here is mine: endometriosisyou can read that if you want the details, but mostly it means that i take a lot of narcotic drugs, hate myself about five straight days ( Read more... )

new job new job new job new job! yaaayyy!!!!

i've been home sick for the past two days watching crap tv on our crap television. last night there was a "man vs. food" marathon. its a show where the host spends some of his time talking about how delicious things are made, and most of his time trying to eat enormous food challenge type meals ( Read more... )

today i am working on my resume and getting a new cell phone. i was supposed to go for a ride but i am putting it off because i need to hella take care of business. and i rode yesterday. katy, tara, and myself practiced formation riding at the polo field track. i'd never been there! oh my god. what an amazing resource that's been at my disposal for ( Read more... )

i'm going through my belongings trying to figure out what i can sell and what i can hide under my bed. i have the tv on in the background so i don't feel like i'm all by myself, but also because for some weird reason having something distracting going on makes me more focused ( Read more... )

i feel like i should use this thing more often. i find myself wanting to share little tidbits of my life with people without having to log into myspace. or, i find myself in need of an actual "journal" except i want people to be able to read it so that i don't end up having to explain myself too many times. something sparked a need to write last ( Read more... )

my friend sarah is getting married in portland late august. i've known about it for a while and kept tabs on the $70 each way plane tickets from sfo to pdx all spring. i scrimped and i saved and now that i have enough money to buy the tickets for my trip, they've gone up to $120 each way. I DON'T HAVE THAT KIND OF MONEY!!! i am totally hatin' the ( Read more... )

justin broke his jaw about two weeks ago and has had it wired shut for about a week. he was supposed to have it done for three and a half weeks total but he went to the doctor yesterday and now its going to be five weeks total ( Read more... )