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Lips of an angel
So today has been an off day. I am not sure that I like today. I wish I could erase it. I didn't get any sleep last night, so I am so overtired. I wanted to sleep and I tried, but without a sleeping pill I was screwed and the stupid resident discontinued all of my meds without telling me. I am so cranky and emotional. I hate feeling this way. I had ( Read more... ) -
Oh Happy Day
OK so today is a happy day.. thank goodness.. I feel like I am getting a break from the sadness... I am glad about that... and maybe I am just getting better again I am not sure. I can not say that it is the meds since I just started them last night. I have hope though that the meds combined with support and therapy I will beable to get to a normal ( Read more... ) -
Ramblings from the hospital...
Well I am not sure if things are getting better... but they are what they are. I know that I have awesome friends and I just want to thank them all for all thier support while I have been freaking out and acting stupid. I am still very very sad.. but there are atleast happy moments inbetween. I am interested to see what this new medication will do ( Read more... ) -
I am here
Though I am not sure I really want to be. I'm sitting in a hospital typing on a computer just to find enough distraction to make me feel ok for five minutes, but it is not working. My head is still spinning, and I feel like I am going to be sick. My heart aches, and it seems nothing I think is real really could be. I am broken, they are trying to ( Read more... ) -
Two years in the making!
Hey everyone.. so I realized today that I have not been on here in forever. Face book seems to have taken over.. as well as life in general. I just felt the need to write in here again. Nothing major to say.. just to write. Anyways this is just a quick update.. Oj and I are living in Halifax, and he is working hard... bless his heart. I could not ( Read more... ) -
Random ramblings from late night thinking and heavy hearts.
I am just sitting here for once taking some time to write in my journal. OJ is working back shift tonight so I am home alone all night. It is weird and at the same time kinda nice. So other than the plesantries I shall warn you all this is going to be a ranting post cause I just need to get some things off my chest ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
Ok so for the sake of sounding like an idiot I am going to write a post because I am excited. I am really excited to go to work tomorrow.. I know that sounds funny but it is so true. LOL... I am dressing up for work in the morning and I am super excited because i know the people at work think I am crazy. Last year I was a bunny ( which solicited ( Read more... ) -
It has been far too long
So Oj and I have been married almost a month, and it has been a month with alot of emotional ups and downs. Getting married is the best thing I have ever done, and I love him more today than yesterday and less than tomorrow. There are just alot of changes that come with getting married, and it takes alot of work. I am just glad that he is a laid ( Read more... ) -
Everything Changes in 36 days
I can not believe that in 36 days my life will change.. it is a dream come true and yet it is the scariest thing that I have ever had to deal with. I assume that most of you can guess that I am writing of my upcoming marriage. Everything has been a crazy rollercoster ride.. and I can not wait for it to be over. I mean I am happy about getting ( Read more... ) -
Random August post.
Well things are going well with me. This is my last night of work for three days so I am super excited. Not to mention that Oj is comming down, and we are going to attend our first pre-marital councelling session. I love it when I get to see him.. right now every two weeks is working well though it is still hard ( Read more... )