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Love you
my nerves will be the death of me i know
i can't sleep at night anymore. i have no ambition to get up in the day time anymore. and when im awake i feel like i'm just floating through my day. like nothing is really happening anymore. i told myself i could never survive this kind of pain agian..i knew i couldn't i have no idea how i am.
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ok i know i havent written in a while and i probably wont in another short while...i am trying to get my shit in line so please don't be mad
<3 atheena -
Just babbling like a fat idiot!!!
It wasn't until this year that I realized how much I have changed,
I have lost friends,
I have made the most amazing new ones ever,
I have made some of the hugest mistakes of my life and they will haunt me for as long as I live,
I have brought things upon myself and put myself in a position to be questioned,
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Dearest Daddy
<3 Daddy<3
I’m tired of holding this in
I’m tired of being a caddy
Lugging around all your problems
I’m not your little girl anymore daddy
every time you turn around
The wick on my candle stays lit
I love to watch you frown
And listen to you fret
You always told me to never get too close
And without friends I’d be just fine
Guess what Daddy???
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Theres a voice in my head telling me why I should hate you, but I hate myself instead
Theres a pair of dead eyes in the mirror looking back at me
I guess its wrong to live life
Scars are tearing open along my palms and knees
I guess thats what I should get for crawling back at your feet
and now I'm feeling so down that theres no god above
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wow
February 5, 2008
My BIG First Step….Completed
When do you realize just how big of an asshole you are? Why do humans have feelings? Think of all mankind could accomplish if they didn’t have feelings. If a man sawed off his finger at work, he’d know there was nothing he could do about it and keep on working.
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newer poem...
SILENT SCREAMING
"Love me and protect me,
but don't hurt me again!"
Her heart is silently screaming,
but there's no one to hear the din.
Her soul is bruised and battered,
something we cannot see.
Her dreams are torn and shattered,
Is this the way her life must be?
You might not see the damage,
Most of it is inside,
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Fulfilling plans...and good news!!!!
What would you do if i were to close my eyes
truely listen to myself and follow my soul
What if i left this place where my spirit dies
and start anew with only my dreams
Would you support me if i wanted to help myself
seek a better path and mindset
Would you allow me to get help if it affected my health
caused me to self-mutilate
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Scuicidal????????
When overwhelmed by comfusion and stressed like a rubberband right before it snaps all Atheena can think about is how she can end her life. At first she thought of making a noose, next came a thought of slicing her viens open, then came the thought of laying on train tracks(the train could never stop in time). Atheena soon came to ask her school ( Read more... ) -
Feelings of guilt, confusion and doubt take over my mind.....
Ugh things suck her in denver. Wish i could quit feeling so alone and lost. Everyone tells me "Atheena You're just being retarded you have an awsome life and though the past sucked the present won't." Easy for them to say. I haven't even been able to manage looking at myself in the mirror and everytime ask myself why i think the things i do i ( Read more... )