It's so weird for me to be with someone that actually tells me that it's time for bed so I have to go home. I guess that's normal with someone that truly respects your virtue or something. It's sad that I'm not used to that I guess. He values me, because otherwise I don't think it'd matter. If anything happens it will be even more special. Yay for ( Read more... )

This time it's not all worrying, some of it is cramps. The guy I like asked the big question about my past. He says he knows me know and he wants to see how I got this way. It's scary for me to talk about my past. But I did it in the cleanest possible way without lying. It helps me feel a but lighter, but once he responds that it doesn't matter ( Read more... )

I spent from 4-10something with the guy I like last evening. He sent me home because he was afraid I'd be too tired and crash or something. And it probably wouldn't have been good if I'd have stayed longer because I was pretty tired and would've probably went to sleep. He loaned me a CD and it's pretty good. I listened to it when I got home from ( Read more... )

Happily I got a call from the guy I like inviting me to come hang out. There was much snuggling and music listening to. I didn't want to leave but I had to go to my cousin's birthday party. It was so sweet! And he was the first guy that's ever snuck a kiss from me. Sneaky butt did it so fast I didn't have any time to react. But the weird thing is ( Read more... )

Yay me! I have no idea why I get so excited about birthdays, because in reality they are kind of depressing. Maybe I like the attention birthdays get me. I know I like getting warm Jammies and sweaters which I usually get for my birthday. It's amusing how I don't use the name of the guy I like on here. I guess it's paranoia that someone from ( Read more... )

You know I've waited all this time to find out if the guy I like likes me back. I found out last night that he indeed does like me. But he's very afraid of being hurt, or that I'm decieving him. Because he falls hard fast. He said he doesn't want to mess stuff up cause I'm a nice person. I've heard this before in the context of rejection.... so I ( Read more... )

I went to the Dances of Universal Peace at school. The guy I like was there and was happy to see me. I actually went because he sort of invited me. We partnered off for some of the dances, and it was all holding hands in a circle. Yay an hour and a half of holding hands. Anyway, I ended up going with a group of people to a coffee house to hang ( Read more... )

I'm happy! I got ballsy by emailing the guy I like and I got a positive response. He said he wants to see me this weekend, and not in so many words invited me to a dance thing we have at school. I'm hoping that I can go. Assuming that my aunt gets back in time I will be there. A girl at school showed us how to do some before and they are so fun! ( Read more... )

I've had problems sleeping for awhile now, again. I realize that I don't sleep normally. I think my internal clock goes insane when seasons change or something. Or maybe it was the decending depression or a combination. I think the depression has let up some. It feels just kind of tired now. Tired and stressed but not totally hopeless which is ( Read more... )

Ok, the guy I liked never emailed me back right? I took this as being a bad thing, but he is still talking and flirting with me. I'm still in a bummed out mood for some reason. But that's beside the point. I was sitting and talking to him and I made a comment about wondering where Sarah Emmer is, she's one of the people that I absolutely love and ( Read more... )