my party this saturday is in just 4 short days.

my 16th birthday is in ONE WEEK!!
august 23rd <3

i want a pony.
no just kidding...
well a pony would be nice
but i doubt anyone would ACTUALLY get me a pony

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong

I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

life goes on, it doesnt wait for anyone. so i wont let it pass me by.

you should know that this pertains to you.

my birthdays in 15 days
august 23rd <3
finally 16
party on the 20th!!
so excited for it all

i hate being home alone at night.. its scaring me

im realizing i fight more with my mom than most people do with their siblings that they hate. im starting to think theres something seriously wrong with our relationship. ha and im pretty sure people are sick of ( Read more... )

i bought a car!!

88 Honda Accord 2 door

white with burgandy interior

i am SO excited

its perfect

cheer camp was amazing

winning the spirit stick 3 days in a row. thats right.. we actually have a spirit stick

having the coolest wackiest 6'5, some what homosexual, male NCA cheer coach by the name of Drake-- "colleen spread your legs. this isnt church camp"

rooming with annie and staying up until all hours of the night doing absolutely nothing

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i find myself pathetically longing for something i really dont need

but its out there.. and im ready to find it. its hard to see all my friends with that one.. im glad to see them all so happy but it would be so much easier to just have it myself. him...

someone that would rather on a friday night sit at home with me than go out with his friends

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ever get that trapped feeling? no where to run and no where to hide..

& nothing is ever good enough for her- i feel like and know it was all just a mistake, i was a mistake

she abuses her power and drains me of everything i am

she hates everything in her life so she takes it out on me- takes advantage of me- takes her fears and aggressions through ( Read more... )

summer sunshine is doing me good

Saw sisterhood of the traveling pants with Kalila Maasa and Andrea.. we are just like them. i hope we stay that way.. love those girls to death!!!

The 4th kicked ass at erins house. BBQing, lame fireworks, and dancing around with sparklers.

Manicures make my day

Cheer Camp at Central in 2 weeks.. cant wait

Road Trip ( Read more... )

so i just got some pictures back and thought i'd share them.. nena katie missy & Is trip to the cheesecake factory the last day of school!

--CHEESECAKE--

Missy & I at the Cheesecake Factory!
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saying goodbye is not an easy thing to do. i dont deal well with change.. and the term goodbye is most usually associated with a fairly large change in life. in fact i may even go so far as to say i hate it. i also have now come to hate the war on iraq. i hate whoever sends people over there. i hate the government that just decides to send soldiers ( Read more... )