So i realize that i didnt do my usual end of the year long update on about everything that happened...but thats because i've been busy ENJOYING 2007!  2006 actually wasn't terrible...i mean it wasn't good but it wasn't terrible but i guess just for the sake of tradition i can do the whole top 10 good things top 10 bad thigns...in no particular ( Read more... )

so i did it
im single

and i know it was the right thing
i know he deserved it
i know i can do better
i know i had to after what happened
whats been happening

what i dont know
is why it hurts so goddamn much

I just looked at picture from this weekend and i realized two things...
1. those body language people know what they are talking about
2. pictures can lie to no end...how can it look so happy but be so broken?

its that moment when you realize exactly what happened
and you realize you dont know what the fuck to do next
because honestly...
you dont want to deal with it
you want to forget about it
you want to move on

there are people who have had so much worse done to them
so why can't i just get over this?
im fine i really am
i should consider myself lucky
so why ( Read more... )

all i want his him back here with me
there is completely and totally two sides to this whole thing...the side that says keep waiting because even looking at another guy feels wrong..and the side that says do what absolutely ALL of your friends keep telling you to and "not miss out on anything" the first side has been winning out no matter what...but ( Read more... )

so on a day like today normally id have a ton of poetry in here and stuff but i really don't feel like it...i really don't feel like putting anything in here except then i have no idea why im typing..maybe its b/c im so tired and dont feel good and have had my contacts in WAY longer than i should have idk..or maybe this is my way of just letting ( Read more... )

Right now i am completely in so far over my head its not even funny
im digging myself the deepest hole possible
and i couldnt careless
because its what ive wanted for so long

In a world where everything is moving
faster faster
and the noise keeps getting
louder louder
its getting hard to breathe
in this atmosphere where nothing ever stops
im searching for a hand to hold
im screaming for help
and then i look up into the sky
and see one
sole
white bird against the pitch black
and remember that even though i cant see you
we are looking ( Read more... )

So first day of first stage was def pretty solid...its still missing something...or some people i should say but it was still a wonderful time and full of laughs..im sure your going to be reading more or less this same entry from a lot of people or maybe you have even written one yourself but what the hell i got some time to kill so heres summary ( Read more... )

so...is it wrong to say that doing this without you scares the shit out of me and its just not...idk..right somehow?