I haven't found it this hard to exist in a long time ( Read more... )

It's funny.  I used to think I was all tragic and broken and riddled with problems, but I'm not.....I'm whole and sturdy and can do anything ( Read more... )

I was in my car tonight driving through the fog (emotional and physical) and I came to a question:

Why do guys not want to be in a relationship?  Girls, yeah, we want to be in a relationship from the time we enter middle school, but guys are a good 15-20 years behind us, and it makes for a rough time on both parts.  Personally, I like to understand ( Read more... )

Based on true events.

She had never been one to pick up pennies. Wishing on stars and crossing fingers were things of her childhood, and even then it had been a stretch. So she found it odd that she was still standing there, staring down at her feet, hesitating over one cent. Her life was changing and things she thought she was sure of had become ( Read more... )

Nope.  Not gonna happen.  Nice try,  very tricky, but it's not gonna happen.   I consider this a test, and I will pass this test with flying colors.  When did love become my four letter word ( Read more... )

The thing about pain is, when it comes again, it's like the healing never happened.  It's always that first time feeling, raw and ripped open all over.  It doesn't matter if the pain is from a death, from love, from a friend...or just is.  It's like tragedy in that she could never be prepared for it, and she could never trick it.  There's always an ( Read more... )

Nothing new to report except

I'm still bummed.  This is weird.

I'll wait this out.

Wow.  I'm bummed.  Umm...I'm pretty bummed.

That sucks.

Every now and then it occurs to me that I might not be revealing my real self to people all the time as I would like to.  Sometimes I find myself morphing into the beer drinking-catchphrase using-fuck that shit-hollow laughing- crowd that is college.  And I don't even go to college.  Could I be any other girl, with the same American Eagle jeans and ( Read more... )

When I was young(er) my mom always said "Nicole, someday some man is going to take one look at you, and he'll be helpless."  And I've always believed her, which is why I'm here writing this.

In her attempt to give me a feeling of self-worth and hope she has inadvertantly taken away my ability to weed out those who's affections are real from those ( Read more... )