This journal is officially closed. Please add machinate to your lists. That will be the name I go back to after YEARS. YEARS.

Going back there. Thanks, folks.

Currently obsessed with Animal Yokocho, which is an adorable japanese cartoon. I'd be here more, but I've been sick and just trying to get healthy. When I actually sit down here for more than ten minutes, I intend on putting up some new pictures and giving everyone a good and solid update. I haven't read my Friends List in awhile too, so I'll have ( Read more... )

This morning when I woke up.. I ran the bathtub for my lovely daughter. Got the flower and bee soap and massaged it into her while conditioning her soft brown hair. No simple task, I took up her hair and tried weeding the knots out of it. I've no clue where she got such baby fine hair, but it wasn't from me. I'm known for my thick hair, as was ( Read more... )

"There is an idea of a Patrick Bateman; some kind of abstraction. But there is no real me: only an entity, something illusory. And though I can hide my cold gaze, and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping yours and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are probably comparable... I simply am not there. "It's upon watching the uncut version ( Read more... )

Doctor said I've got a collapsed sinus. Delightful, isn't it? He said he usually only sees it people with facial injuries, but my infection is so bad that it did it on it's own. Had to get medicine and supplies.

No big birthday bonanaza now. Everyone will have to wear face masks and deal with a drugged up and sick Candice. Fantastical.

It was five years ago at this very moment that I laid on a brown couch in Philadelphia, nine months pregnant. I was confused and uncertain, dealing with the inevitable child that was soon to be born and having no clue how she was to raise a kid ( Read more... )

My birthday is coming up.

I want new shoes and a pair of nice jeans. I hope I can get those. That'd be nice.

It's been a few years now since Justin died. I was looking over all of the pictures I have of him on some disk I made two years ago. He's so cute.. so happy, so perfect. He and I would've been something so amazing. That kinda relationship where you're constantly feeling as if the next day will get better. That you could love someone so hard that ( Read more... )

So yeah, still dealing with the ear infection. That'll go away eventually. Whatever, you know? It could be worse ( Read more... )

It was exactly one in the morning here. It snowed outside yet there were heavy, thumping sounds on the inside. I just stared at everyone infront of me and meanwhile, it was like there was a movie going on in my head. This wasn't where I was supposed to be. I should've been knee deep in compliments from Marcus, smiling at his face and yawning ( Read more... )