i've come to the conclusion that i am awesome. that is all.

well at least now i don't have to feel bad about fucking someone else.

and also: oooh shit...

none of my stupid clothes fit. they're all too big. hmph.

it's not his fault. really it's not. we're both kinda fucked up. we just react to it in different ways.

okay not really ( Read more... )

oh lordy, i am falling.

my room is dirty again! but not as dirty. i should tidy up or something ( Read more... )

my room is almost clean!

almost...

doing a damn good job of pushing the boy away. now i just need to figure out why i'm pushing him away. is it fear of rejection? fear of being left? fear of actually being happy for a change? who knows? not me.

man i am so emo right now.