I am bored today. Well, I am bored right now. I am just wondering why nobody will talk to me. I mean I know 2 people that are mad at me. And I am in need to talk to them... But it seems that they dont care. Oh well.... i cant do nothing about it. well i am talking to one right now. and she is still mad at me. i am so terrified of getting this ( Read more... )

Well I am sitting here being terrified. I hate the thought of having a surgury. i am like so scared. I have never had a surgury before. i guess I didnt want to have to go through this. But look I have to anyways. I keep telling myself I am not going to do it I am going to just say i am all better, and be in pain for ever. But i dotn want that ( Read more... )

Yes, like i just said this has been a week of hell. I have been in so much pain. I have missed all week of school. thats never good. since my grades are really low now. And let me see. Tuesday I went to the ER. yes they did try me.. (eric they are lucky i didnt kill them) I almost did when they tried to cathidize me (girls never be catherized) ( Read more... )

Well my first day back to school was like prision. Well that is how it always is, but still. I did not want to return... But at least i survived. I had the best spring break that i have ever had, then i had to come back with no modivation to school... I do not know why I do not want to go to school right now. I did this last year... Oh well. I am ( Read more... )

well, today was one great of a day. I spent another day with, the man of my dreams. I love John so much. today we went mini golfing again, like we did on tuesday. i love playing mini golf. I suck, but still love it. Like tuesday, I was the only one to get a hole in one. But i still lost. I had a really good time. Oh, my I pulled some muscle in my ( Read more... )

Alone
By desiree

I am alone,
so very alone

I hurt,
so very bad

I am ignored,
just thrown aside

I am security,
for others to have

I am lonely,
there is no one close,
no one sees the pain

I cry,
hope is gone

I am alone,
and no one knows

I dont understand things in my life. I just dont understand my friends. Or other ppl in this world. I dont understand why rumers become your repetation. Why does it have to be that way. I mean rumers are not true. But they become the truth once they are told. every one believes it. and noone wants to give u the time of day, and listen. Oh well. I ( Read more... )

I am now in a better mood. I am still confused and frustrated but over all, I am ok. John came over today, and he we just hung out. It was cool. I love spending time with him. Well, today has went by pretty fast. actually the whole spring break has. I hate when that happens. But its ok. I just cant wait until summer. I hate when ppl tell me to ( Read more... )

Today, is a strange day for me. I dont know why, but it is. I hate to admit when i am thinking about my dad. but I have been. Actually, I have been alot lately. My dad died when I was 2. He wasnt much of a father either. All he did was hurt me and my mom.(not that I remember that, but still). Why is it I still care? And wonder what was he like ( Read more... )

Today has been a boring and rainy day. I hate when I cant sleep. and I had that problem last night. I went to sleep at 12 am. and had to wake at 5 am. it really sucked. Well today, I have been home almost all day. I hate being home. I miss my baby. I love John so much. I never thought that I could fall for someone, after being screwed like I ( Read more... )